Tired of being a muslim

I'd just like to apologize in advance for spelling mistakes/grammar/punctuation problems. I guess I should start off with that I'm a 17yr old 'Muslim' girl but I don't believe in God. It was only really recently I started to question my beliefs but after lots of research I've come to the conclusion that science and Islam are just not compatible (as a Muslim you're told that they are, blah blah blah the Quran predicted this years before so and so proves it and all that bull). So the problem is that it's close to Ramadan (less than a week I believe) and this is going to be my first year 'celebrating' Ramadan as an atheist and I don't know how I'm going to survive. The problem isn't going to be the actual fasting itself, no; the problem is going to be that I'm going to be expected to pray so fricking much (tarawee anyone?) and the fact that I'm going to have to put up with a **** load of Muslims going all holier than thou on me and I just don't know how to stop myself from punching them in the face :@ My parents are already on my case telling me to read my prayers and the Quran and for the past year my excuse has been that I've come late from school/ I have an exam tomorrow/lots of homework to do etc but now exams are over I don't have an excuse for coming home late from school and not reading. I've got lots of things planned this summer to keep me away from home really because I don't know how long I'll cope cooped in a house full of religious nuts. At my school you only get 5 weeks summer holidays, 4 of those I shall be doing the Nuffield Research Placement from 9-5 every Monday-Friday and in the other week I have left I shall be at a summer school (oh I also volunteer at Cancer Research every Saturday so I guess Sunday is the only full day I shall be at home). Despite this, I still have this feeling that somehow I'll let it slip that I'm an atheist and **** will go down. I only really have a year left at home before I move out (if results and uni stuff all goes to plan) and until then I'm just going to keep pretending but I hate this. I want to take my scarf off and I want to be able to go out whenever I want to. I want to be able to drink on my 18th this year but I know I can't and it really frustrates me. I'm so jealous of everyone who can choose to believe in god or not and they don't have to risk being chucked out and losing their family. I guess I don't really have a question; I just needed somewhere to vent. But if anyone has anything to say that'll make me feel better then please go ahead.

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