Stuck in the land of "I simply don't believe you"

I'm stuck. I found evidence that suggests my H has been unfaithful. Our whole marriage he's been secretive (passwords on computer and phone). After removing his passwords I found escorts in his contacts and charges to ****** ******* (married dating site). I found numerous email accounts all wiped of data and social media profiles under aliases. He swears he didn't cross the line and only fantasized. I didn't believe him. I left. We've been separated for 5 weeks. For 5 weeks he's been trying to reconcile. He still maintains nothing else happened and that I know all there is to know. He's going to sex addiction counseling and taking responsibility for the hurt he's caused. Unfortunately, I still don't believe him. I just can't believe that with all data cleared I found what I found and that's all there is. I can't believe that he would actively pursue other people in online adult dating sites but never hook up. Regardless, I can't get out of the lan d of disbelief. So, I can't even think about reconciliation when I simply do not believe him. Anyone been here?

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