No sex on vacation

Went on a beautiful blissful vacation with my husband of 23 years. I was so upset that we didn't have sex even once during our vacation. I even hinted to my husband about it before the trip that there was a hot tub in the room. (Not used at all). To preface this. we did have sex on Valentines day but not since and not on our vacation that was workfree and stressfree. Let me start by saying that my husband is an very early riser and gets tired really early. I know about a year ago I found that he was going to his computer downstairs early in the morning as he always does and was viewing porn and I am sure masturbating. We had discussed it then and told him how I felt and it could have stopped but he knows now how to delete history. I also know now that he masturbates alot in the morning but I really don't care about that. What I care about that is that I felt very insulted and upset and felt undesired that we didnt have sex even once on vacation. I know he is always tired at night but come on it's vacation. Now I don't want to have sex with him just to feel like he has to appease me every once in awhile. I want to feel desired! He is a great husband and father other than this. We are empty nesters so we could have sex whenever we want if we wanted. I don't know if it just his laziness or no desire for me. I want to cry. Let me also say it's not like I am this crazed sex wife and want it every second but I do want to feel desired. I am 50 years old and my husband is 52 and we are both very youthful looking. I always try to look my best, but could afford to loose like ten pounds. I am at that age where it's hard to get off. Just don't want the years to pass before I will not be able to have sex and regret all this. Is it his laziness or lack of desire for me. Have had this discussion like a year ago. Don't expect sex all the time BUT come on. What husband doesnt want to do it on vacation. Sooo Upset. But When he finally does approach me with sex, I will say no because I just don't want him to have sex with me every once in a blue moon just to appease me and then go back to masturbating cause it's easier!

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