Can a relationship still last if i...

My husband and i have been married for 7 years and have 2 small kids under the age of 5. A few years ago i finally told him that i had an attraction to women but not how deep it was. Well this past year has been huge for us, went thru a lot of changes and broke free from a religious cult. Well, this freedom from the bondage i'd experienced my entire life has finally given me the courage to be more honest about who i really am and to be more authentic and to just really live my life. A few months ago my husband began to encourage me to seek out a girl that i could fulfill my fantasies with and i did. I met a girl that i really like and really connected with. All we've done is make out and heavy petting. Hubby got to watch us make out a couple of times so he was thrilled, everyone was getting what they wanted. The problem came when I told him how much i loved it and that it was better than what i'd dreamed it would be. I've been attracted to women since i was in kindergarten, that was my first female crush, its not just some phase. I got married to a man and had children because it was what i thought i should be doing, i was trying to do the right thing, plus i really loved him. But now things are really confusing and we are both hurting and don't know how to fix it. He has forbid me to see her or any other women but i really don't know if i can do that. Can a marriage survive like this?? How can we make it better?? We are going to marriage counseling starting next week but what else can we do??? HELP

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