Just feeling low as though things are unfair, I'm female and might be in my late twenties but I can't help the way I feel even if it is childish. Basically I've never had a proper social life due to being shy and quiet so I've missed out on my youth but I'm not bitter about that as it's my own fault for being too quiet and not making enough effort. Truth is I've just not been cool enough which is why I've not had a proper relationship/boyfriend too. Anyway I've been going to a sports club for over 10 years and have known people for a long time. I've put a lot of effort in competing for them basically no one likes to turn up at competitions but I've made sure I've been there to support the club etc. I've covered when people have begged me too because they don't want to for whatever reason. It still hasn't really made me any friends though
. I've had a crush in a much older man for years and he asked me out so I said yes. I've been getting odd looks though and 3 girls/women have defriended me off facebook. They are always liking each other's posts etc and maybe it shouldn't, but it really upsets me that I've basically been excluded and makes me feel a little bitter..but I don't know what else to feel?? . I think part of it is because I'm very quiet to start with and the fact that I'm dating this much older man has just made them think I'm weird. It annoys me a bit too as I've always turned out for the club to please people and yet those who always made excuses/don't turn up are accepted socially. I'm thinking of ending it with this older man anyway although I like him the age gap is just too big and some would say ridiculous, but he's a fit bloke/muscles etc he doesn't look his age. Anyone else his age I would have said no too but it was just him. I've always worried about what people think though.
Anyway yea he goes to the sports club too and if I break up with him I will lose him too, this is a different issue though.
Just wanted advice the club want me to compete for them again this year but I just feel left out and a bit annoyed, maybe my feelings are unjustified and I'm going over the top (it's only facebook after all!) but still, I don't know was just looking for advice or just wanted to get this off my chest.
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