Ok we've been tog.for 9 yrs with 3 small children, our youngest is only 14mo.s. We were living abroad for a few yrs and just moved back here in the summer. The kids and I moved here first and he moved back here 3 mo.s later. I found out that he cheated on me while he was living there. Anyways, we've decided to work things out and while staying at my father's house. Eventually we had decided to stay in separate rooms at my father's for 3 months and had an agreement that we were separated. I've started dating in those 3 mo.s we were separated. 4 wks ago, we had decided to work things out n have a happy family. He was really hesitant at first and the 3 wks we were working things out, he kept telling me that he wasn't sure about us and he loves me but..
I was feeling hurt coz I've stopped dating bec.I've realized that I still love him very much and I told him that. He told me everyday that he really loves me too. Anyways, last wk I found out that he had another Facebook account and he was talking to women there and on top of that, he was showing them his pics of our children and me 'his hot wife' and flirting with them n talking about sex. Also, I just found out that he's been on a dating website trying to meet women. 2 days ago was supposed to be our Anniversary celebration and that morning he logged on to the site and messaged a bunch of women. Also, I found out that he has another email account. He also was emailing a very unattractive middle aged fat woman telling her that he really miss her right on our Anniversary. On top of that, he was trying to meet men for sex. Yes men! He was all over Craigslist with his face on it and messaging men there too. He admitted that he only did a man once and it was last wk. I'm so badl y hurt coz I've been taking care of our children all the time with no break, no time for myself at all but he could actually meet men/women while pretending that he was so busy at work. Another thing also,he was sending them our children pics and my pics calling me 'his incredibly hot wife!' and that my twin sis is a model.I felt so used coz I am a really good wife n a mother to his children. I made sure he had lunch for work and I made him special food whenever he comes home from work eventhough it's a chaos taking care of 3 small children. I asked him many times for us to play but he kept on turning me down telling me that it was uncomfortable atm and that we had to be friends first. Oh and also he put an ad on CL looking for a very big woman. I was crying so hard when I found out right on our Anniversary about all these. He felt so bad and telling me that he was sorry and crying and now he wants me back. He said that he's not gay and he doesn't even like big women. He sai d that it was just more like a sex fantasy and pervertion coz he was feeling h. I am so disgusted and I can't look at him the same way again. I am staying at my mother's house for now. He found a place to rent by the water and forest and he wants to turn things around and be spiritual and focus on our family. He said that he realized now that he really loves me and he will treat me right. He wants me back. Part of me says I can't do this anymore coz it's just full of lies but another part of me wants him back coz I still love him very much and we have 3 children. I am not sure if I could really trust him. I am so hurt that he just used me as his trophy wife. I told him that I can't compete with men an big women. I am a very attractive person and he knows that I always get lots of attention from men n women but I told him that I am not his type. It just makes sense. He said that he finds me very sexy but he just wanted to end our marriage so badly that he let himself go and t otally trash everything. He felt so miserable over the yrs but now he realized that he still loves me very much an he wants to start a new life tog.and have a happy family. I don't know if I couldd trust him. he said that he will shut down his email, fb account, change his phone no.,etc, anything to make me trust him. I just feel like I cant coz when I found out that he had another FB account just last wk before our Anniv., he was very sorry but the same day he was messaging men n women for sex. He said that at that time, he just wanted our marriage to be over. I still love him but I just don't know. Should I take him back because we have 3 children? Should I not trust him ever again? Will I be used again? Is he a sex addict? He said that he was looking for men and big women coz they were just easy and he had self esteem issues but he felt disgusted to himself. I don't know what to do. I feel really bad for our 3 little girls. He disrepected them too very bad. I am just very hurt.
I was feeling hurt coz I've stopped dating bec.I've realized that I still love him very much and I told him that. He told me everyday that he really loves me too. Anyways, last wk I found out that he had another Facebook account and he was talking to women there and on top of that, he was showing them his pics of our children and me 'his hot wife' and flirting with them n talking about sex. Also, I just found out that he's been on a dating website trying to meet women. 2 days ago was supposed to be our Anniversary celebration and that morning he logged on to the site and messaged a bunch of women. Also, I found out that he has another email account. He also was emailing a very unattractive middle aged fat woman telling her that he really miss her right on our Anniversary. On top of that, he was trying to meet men for sex. Yes men! He was all over Craigslist with his face on it and messaging men there too. He admitted that he only did a man once and it was last wk. I'm so badl y hurt coz I've been taking care of our children all the time with no break, no time for myself at all but he could actually meet men/women while pretending that he was so busy at work. Another thing also,he was sending them our children pics and my pics calling me 'his incredibly hot wife!' and that my twin sis is a model.I felt so used coz I am a really good wife n a mother to his children. I made sure he had lunch for work and I made him special food whenever he comes home from work eventhough it's a chaos taking care of 3 small children. I asked him many times for us to play but he kept on turning me down telling me that it was uncomfortable atm and that we had to be friends first. Oh and also he put an ad on CL looking for a very big woman. I was crying so hard when I found out right on our Anniversary about all these. He felt so bad and telling me that he was sorry and crying and now he wants me back. He said that he's not gay and he doesn't even like big women. He sai d that it was just more like a sex fantasy and pervertion coz he was feeling h. I am so disgusted and I can't look at him the same way again. I am staying at my mother's house for now. He found a place to rent by the water and forest and he wants to turn things around and be spiritual and focus on our family. He said that he realized now that he really loves me and he will treat me right. He wants me back. Part of me says I can't do this anymore coz it's just full of lies but another part of me wants him back coz I still love him very much and we have 3 children. I am not sure if I could really trust him. I am so hurt that he just used me as his trophy wife. I told him that I can't compete with men an big women. I am a very attractive person and he knows that I always get lots of attention from men n women but I told him that I am not his type. It just makes sense. He said that he finds me very sexy but he just wanted to end our marriage so badly that he let himself go and t otally trash everything. He felt so miserable over the yrs but now he realized that he still loves me very much an he wants to start a new life tog.and have a happy family. I don't know if I couldd trust him. he said that he will shut down his email, fb account, change his phone no.,etc, anything to make me trust him. I just feel like I cant coz when I found out that he had another FB account just last wk before our Anniv., he was very sorry but the same day he was messaging men n women for sex. He said that at that time, he just wanted our marriage to be over. I still love him but I just don't know. Should I take him back because we have 3 children? Should I not trust him ever again? Will I be used again? Is he a sex addict? He said that he was looking for men and big women coz they were just easy and he had self esteem issues but he felt disgusted to himself. I don't know what to do. I feel really bad for our 3 little girls. He disrepected them too very bad. I am just very hurt.
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