(Sorry it's so long, guess I wrote it all out as a vent)
Early this year, I met this girl online through something similar to this and we got on with each other instantaneously. We spoke for a while and exchanged contact information at the end and from then on we were frequently in touch with each other every day. I was open about my sexuality and she identified as heterosexual which I was cool with, she was just a laugh to talk to and I made her laugh in exchange which made me feel good. However, it became apparent to me that I was rather attracted to her. From then on, our conversations changed. I didn't admit how I felt but she began making little comments, saying she was doubting her sexuality and that we'd probably be girlfriends if we didn't live so far apart. One night she confessed she had feelings for me and we decided to try being in a long distance relationship. We lasted from about December 2013 to February when things began to get crazy. She had told me she loved me and everything was perfect. She was adorable and said really sweet things, but would go out every night. One night she woke me up with message after message at 3am. She'd done a harsh drug whilst out and was freaking out and needed me. I had no idea why she did this or what made her want to. She vowed never again after I comforted her to normality again. But after that, we drifted. I made her a valentines gift which she received but I never got hers. She'd ignore my messages all day and never get back to me until I messaged her again. It got to a point where we wouldn't talk for days. It eventually got to a point where we never spoke and I was left heartbroken without confidence to talk to her anymore.
I would say I've gotten over her mostly. I'll never forgive her for what she did to me but my heart broke today. I was sat with one of my friends and we were chatting about exes, so I found my ex's social media page and realized her mother was battling cancer and this was going whilst I was with her and is still going on now. I'm wondering if this is why she went off the rails. I don't know whether I should talk to her again to ask how she's doing, or at least discreetly sending her an anonymous message on something like Tumblr. I feel really bad and on instinct, I want to see if she's alright. But I don't want to get dragged back to her and I don't want to fall for her again. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to see how she's doing and the other half wants nothing to do with her ever again. I still have some feelings for her but at the same time I'm really mad for how she treated me. Do I get in contact with her?
Put the internet to work for you.
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