short and sweet
-got bullied for being fat and my learning disability as a kid, so have had social anxiety since I was 10, and a few days ago found out I may have Aspergers
-went to an all boy's school and never socialised with girls until I was around 16
-didn't do much outtalking to girls n college due to stress/health issues
-stayed at home for uni, because studies! scholarship! RG uni! Save money! Regret it though. Trying to make friends got in the way of my studies; also struggled because I thought every lad would just want to get pissed (stereotyping much)
-I've had a girlfriend before, was fairly platonic in hindsight but we were in love. We broke up because of her family not because she didn't like me, but I also got a bit insecure and jealous of a mate of hers. It wasn't just that he was good looking and funny, it was that he had a lot of female friends, seemed very chill and laid back (something I envy because I'm a bit high-strung and have difficulty changing that) and he generally seemed more socially adjusted. More independent.
-This is when I realised, the biggest problem in my life is my social anxiety and difficulty with 'life skills', not that 'I need a girlfriend' or 'I need to get laid'. In other words, my disability was knocking my confidence.
-It's been near a year now since we broke up, I still have feelings for her and I haven't made much progress with regards to social anxiety. In fact I got a lot worse on some fronts, namely my work ethic, and now I'm unemployed :/ (but I graduated!)
I'm at risk of becoming a bitter misogynist, so before that happens I need tips on, just how to make mates with girls :)
(I should note I'm afraid of being labeled as the 'nice guy', although I'm not seeking a girlfriend I don't want to be thought of as a kid brother or something, as I have a bit of a complex from my sister treating me that way for years.
edit: sorry that's not short and sweet at all haha!
thanks :)
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