Hi everyone.
I'm new to the site and I honestly don't know if I'm after advice, a cure, a miracle or just to rant.
I have known my wife for about 10 years and married nearly 5 now. I honestly do love her more than I can tell you.
I will shorten the story a bit to bore you less.
I have never had anyone come onto me. Always been the shy type and spent most of my child hood looking after my ill grandparents so I didn't have a social life neither.
I met my wife at a party about 11 years ago. Apparently she was coming onto me but I didn't have a clue.
For 3 years I always knew when she was going to be a ***** due to her cycle. It was like clockwork so I knew when to ask for extra shifts at work to avoid her and let someone else get moaned at instead. I was all about me back then so I was a bit of a **** if I'm honest. We split up and met other people but somehow met each other again and then that lead to marriage which I was over the moon about.
Our son came along 3 and a half years ago and from when he was about 6 weeks old she started to change. When I say change I mean jeckle and Hyde. She is now 2 people. One is the nicest person ever. My angel. The other who is around most of the time is a total utter...............
I hate this side of her. I have always said I would never hit a women and I'm certain I wouldn't even now but I'm always having out of body experiences where she is telling me what a useless what's it I am and the noise drowns out by my mind taking over and I can see myself chucking her down the stairs or grabbing her by the throat and shouting what is your bloody problem!!!
But I still love her, some how, and stay with her. Since we got together I have stuck by her And supported her with everything that has happened.
Last year she went out got drunk and brought her friend back to the house. I woke up bout 3 am as they were being noisy and then a little while later heard them playing with each other, her friend is a women. Now every bloke knows what noises their wife makes when they do certain things so I know exactly what was happening. She still lies to this day about it. It took 6 months to suddenly have a day when I didn't think about it and it has taken a lot to stay with her. I'm called all the names under the sun on a daily basis but I'm still here. I now have 2 kids 3 and 9 weeks. The thing that makes this worse is the roller coster ride she sends me on. I never know where I stand. She changes like a flick of a light switch so I never know who she is going to be when I walk back In a room.
She has accused me of cheating which I can promise I have not done. Funny enough this has happened more since she cheated. What a surprise.
I think I am just here for the kids but although i do love her I don't think I want to be here any more. But I refuse to lose my kids. They are what keeps me fighting on everyday.
I have a bad back which really hurts everyday and sometimes slows me down. She is supposed to support me like a wife but constantly tells me how useless I am. This annoys me most of all as she would expect me to be her little ***** if he had a problem.
As I said I don't know what I want from this forum but maybe your words may help.
2 friends have told me to have an affair so it takes the pressure off of home life but even if I did do that it took me years to find someone who wanted me so what chance do I have of an affair.
Mike.
I'm new to the site and I honestly don't know if I'm after advice, a cure, a miracle or just to rant.
I have known my wife for about 10 years and married nearly 5 now. I honestly do love her more than I can tell you.
I will shorten the story a bit to bore you less.
I have never had anyone come onto me. Always been the shy type and spent most of my child hood looking after my ill grandparents so I didn't have a social life neither.
I met my wife at a party about 11 years ago. Apparently she was coming onto me but I didn't have a clue.
For 3 years I always knew when she was going to be a ***** due to her cycle. It was like clockwork so I knew when to ask for extra shifts at work to avoid her and let someone else get moaned at instead. I was all about me back then so I was a bit of a **** if I'm honest. We split up and met other people but somehow met each other again and then that lead to marriage which I was over the moon about.
Our son came along 3 and a half years ago and from when he was about 6 weeks old she started to change. When I say change I mean jeckle and Hyde. She is now 2 people. One is the nicest person ever. My angel. The other who is around most of the time is a total utter...............
I hate this side of her. I have always said I would never hit a women and I'm certain I wouldn't even now but I'm always having out of body experiences where she is telling me what a useless what's it I am and the noise drowns out by my mind taking over and I can see myself chucking her down the stairs or grabbing her by the throat and shouting what is your bloody problem!!!
But I still love her, some how, and stay with her. Since we got together I have stuck by her And supported her with everything that has happened.
Last year she went out got drunk and brought her friend back to the house. I woke up bout 3 am as they were being noisy and then a little while later heard them playing with each other, her friend is a women. Now every bloke knows what noises their wife makes when they do certain things so I know exactly what was happening. She still lies to this day about it. It took 6 months to suddenly have a day when I didn't think about it and it has taken a lot to stay with her. I'm called all the names under the sun on a daily basis but I'm still here. I now have 2 kids 3 and 9 weeks. The thing that makes this worse is the roller coster ride she sends me on. I never know where I stand. She changes like a flick of a light switch so I never know who she is going to be when I walk back In a room.
She has accused me of cheating which I can promise I have not done. Funny enough this has happened more since she cheated. What a surprise.
I think I am just here for the kids but although i do love her I don't think I want to be here any more. But I refuse to lose my kids. They are what keeps me fighting on everyday.
I have a bad back which really hurts everyday and sometimes slows me down. She is supposed to support me like a wife but constantly tells me how useless I am. This annoys me most of all as she would expect me to be her little ***** if he had a problem.
As I said I don't know what I want from this forum but maybe your words may help.
2 friends have told me to have an affair so it takes the pressure off of home life but even if I did do that it took me years to find someone who wanted me so what chance do I have of an affair.
Mike.
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