Now before you all comment saying "if you still like her then you haven't moved on", let me give you a brief amount of background
During the summer of my first year of uni i had sudden realisation that i actually liked my best friend (only realised when she starting dating a friend (who's now more like an acquaintance) anyway as time moved forwards i began to realise that i actually loved this girl ... as cliché as it sounds i actually wanted to marry her and start a family with her (i know that's an odd thing for a then 20 year old) to say, i told her how i feel after a particularly bad breakdown (cried for two hours straight (pretty much)), she was my first love ... she was perfect to me
Now i've graduated uni, i'm no longer in love with her, however i still have some feelings for her and part of me is still wanting us to be together (even though i know it's not going to happen), i'm perfectly fine trying for other girls, i don't feel like i'm doing anything wrong, (when i was still in love with her if i got flirty with another girl i felt bad inside cos all i wanted was her ...) not actually had any dates mind you, none of the girls i liked, liked me back in that way but i digress
As far as i know i'm not giving off any signals that i still have feelings for this girl, i only mention her if we've already had the "we're just friends" talk
What i'm not sure on is whether i will ever get over these feelings or weather i'll be this guy that won't go to her wedding because i can't stand her marrying someone that isn't me
Apologies if this is slightly confusing, i'm not quite sure how to phrase this question so ...
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