I have tried drawing, running, singing, dancing, learning another language, and more, and I am just not good at anything, I feel.
I occasionally cook some nice things, but nothing extraordinary, just stuff that most people could probably do.
Whenever I do something I am just average at best, or rubbish. I hardly have any money to take lessons or join clubs etc. and nobody is ever impressed by me... I have been studying a language for 12 years and have spent nearly 2 years living in the country.... even some of my own relatives and family friends (who are fluent in that language) have NEVER told me that I speak the language well. I even did my degree in this language. I can understand films and TV, and written stuff, but when I speak, I just sound like an idiot, find the pronunciation very difficult, and just stutter and look stupid.
I have seen 10 year-olds with better language skills than me. I have people just replying to me in English, and someone told me to speak English because they 'could not understand what I was saying in the other language' and I had said literally one sentence to her. Don't see how I can still be so far from being fluent.
When I was younger, I used to be considered as very intelligent; teachers called me 'gifted', a 'star pupil', and I achieved full marks or close to it in many exams. If you told people that today, they'd probably laugh.
I just feel like giving up learning really..... does anyone else ever feel like this? Thanks
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