Hi guys I could really really do with some advice. (Sorry for the long post, I appreciate anyone that reads it all the way through)
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year and he still hasn't met my family.
Basically I have had two boyfriends prior to my current one but was only with them a few months so never bothered introducing them to my family. However after three months with my current boyfriend he told his entire family, aunts, uncles, parents, grandparents ... literally everyone about me; and then asked me if my family knew. They didn't. I'm really close with my family and we get on quite well, however crushes, boyfriends, girlfriends and relationships don't tend to really get discussed... not entirely sure why but its just the way its always been /: Anyways... I'm quite a shy person anyway but felt like I owed it to both my boyfriend and my family (particularly my mum) to tell my family about my boyfriend. Days went passed and I tried so hard to say something but the words just wouldn't leave my mouth, so one morning when my mum was at work I sent her a text message (massive face palm I know) telling her that I had a boyfriend but requested her not to tell the rest of m y family because I didn't want to get teased. Her immediate reaction was "Oh my god I'm so happy for you, is it the nice boy from work?" Of course it wasn't him, I have no idea how she ever came to that conclusion and so I set her straight, but a part of me still believes that she thinks it is still him.
Fast forward 3 months later and I tell my sister I have a boyfriend, again over text :$ I have no idea why I seem to find it hard to tell people to their faces. She didn't really say much. Since then neither my mum or my sister have bought the subject up again.
Fast forward another 5 months and my dad and brother still do not have a clue, and I have no idea if my mum and sister know that me and my boyfriend are still together. So basically after all that I feel as though I am back to the start.
My boyfriends parents feel that it is weird that I have yet to introduce him to my family and have stated to my boyfriend that he should be weary of me as I don't seem to be taking the relationship seriously. I am taking it seriously, I care for and love him so much, but I just find the boyfriend topic so awkward and nerve racking, even saying the word "boyfriend" out loud makes me feel uncomfortable /: but at the same time I don't want to keep him a secret.
I know I have to tell my family, and I want to, so so so desperately but the idea of doing so makes me feel sick. It's on my mind every day, and I'm even losing sleep over it. I'm pathetic I know, but I just cant do it..... I was in the garden yesterday painting the fence with my dad and there was a number of times when I just wanted to tell him that I have a boyfriend but I seemed to go mute when I went to speak. I feel as though if I tell my dad our little father daughter dynamic will be ruined some how?! I don't know,
Having just re-read what I have typed, I have realised I sound like a 15 year old :| but I am in fact in my early 20's.. I know I'm an adult and I need to get a grip but the thought of telling them is making me feel sick to my stomach and I have no idea how to even bring up the subject and tell everyone :(:(:(:(:(
Please please please TSR give me some advice, I cannot go on like this :(
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