Today was the cherry on top for emotional punching bag action. I work 0530 to 1500 the next day, sleep 1 hour, then do it again. I work two jobs so she doesn't have to work anymore than 2 to 3 hours a day, 4 times a week so she can stay home with our son.
I come home early today and its attitude, attitude, attitude. Apparently her friend surprised her at 930 and wanted her to babysit for her until 1300. The entire time I am home, it's finding everything wrong in the house that I did wrong or misplaced. I know what's going on here, she is taking out her frustration on me for having to watch someone else's child instead of being able to sleep a couple hours in the morning. But she kept at it until I get to sleep for my 2 hours and off to work. But why am I having to play the translate game to begin with? Then when she gets off of work she had a bad day at work so she cried to me about it. So the trick is to treat me like **** enough that you can cry to me later about your bad day? :scratchhead:
See... there is a history to this. The first point was when we got married.
Before we were married everything was fine. I don't know if she was acting happy go lucky because I was an easy going person or what. But after we got married, and I've told her this, she became a different person. She explained she now has exceptions of me that no one else in her family has to live up to but me... I didn't think anything of it, but then we started having arguments and other bs. She seems to turn everything into an incident. We both worked and yet we never had enough money to save anything? :rolleyes: So we go from one emergency to the next.
The next major incident was while I was unemployed. Just so you as the reader knows, I applied for EVERYTHING. Fast food, walmart, call centers, I mean I applied for everything except prostitution and bars. I literately had 50 applied job emails a day from careerbuilder.
Since I was unemployed, and would drop my education on the chance of a job, I was going to school. While I was studying for a Chemistry major, I would spend all day at the college to avoid the distractions of home. When I got home, we would spend a little time together and then I would play games while she watched her shows. This was fine until she was unemployed... it all went to almost arguing everyday, to a point of saying I spend too much time playing video games and never spending time with her.
So, I am confused here. I spend 8 hours at school, I come home and spend time with her then the last few hours of my day I play games and I never spend time with her? I am not allowed to do anything but do things with her apparently... :scratchhead:
That 6 months, we both off and on just left the house. Then we continued down the rocky road and thought we would try for a child, that would fix our issues. I found an ok job and benefits were good.
We would be together and be a happy family, sort of. Our child did unchain issues that were holding us back and communication became much easier, but off and on she still decides to use me as an emotional punching bag. I use to get into arguments with her, because she likes that, I would yell, she would manipulate. It was ridiculous. Her tongue is so sharp, she should have been an attorney.
I mean, this is all just the build up. I work hard, I mean I REALLY work hard and this new situation we are in is her fault. She even told me the other day that she feels like she is a roommate. I give hugs, kisses, sex, and love to a roommate? I ask her how her day is when we can see each other and I give her a break from our son on my days off. But I pay rent to a roommate, that's it. I don't love a roommate or have children with a roommate. But I believe this is all apart of "the games she doesn't play." In her words.
I don't know if I can keep up with this treating me like **** in front of my son. I don't want my son to grow up to know our relationship is healthy or normal. I don't want my son to grow up to know a woman can treat you like **** and you're suppose to put up with it or just deal with it because she is a woman.
I don't know what's really left of this relationship. I am not interested in kicking her to the curb or whatever. I don't know, just tell me what you think. I tried going back and revising the text above to the best of my ability. :thumbup:
I come home early today and its attitude, attitude, attitude. Apparently her friend surprised her at 930 and wanted her to babysit for her until 1300. The entire time I am home, it's finding everything wrong in the house that I did wrong or misplaced. I know what's going on here, she is taking out her frustration on me for having to watch someone else's child instead of being able to sleep a couple hours in the morning. But she kept at it until I get to sleep for my 2 hours and off to work. But why am I having to play the translate game to begin with? Then when she gets off of work she had a bad day at work so she cried to me about it. So the trick is to treat me like **** enough that you can cry to me later about your bad day? :scratchhead:
See... there is a history to this. The first point was when we got married.
Before we were married everything was fine. I don't know if she was acting happy go lucky because I was an easy going person or what. But after we got married, and I've told her this, she became a different person. She explained she now has exceptions of me that no one else in her family has to live up to but me... I didn't think anything of it, but then we started having arguments and other bs. She seems to turn everything into an incident. We both worked and yet we never had enough money to save anything? :rolleyes: So we go from one emergency to the next.
The next major incident was while I was unemployed. Just so you as the reader knows, I applied for EVERYTHING. Fast food, walmart, call centers, I mean I applied for everything except prostitution and bars. I literately had 50 applied job emails a day from careerbuilder.
Since I was unemployed, and would drop my education on the chance of a job, I was going to school. While I was studying for a Chemistry major, I would spend all day at the college to avoid the distractions of home. When I got home, we would spend a little time together and then I would play games while she watched her shows. This was fine until she was unemployed... it all went to almost arguing everyday, to a point of saying I spend too much time playing video games and never spending time with her.
So, I am confused here. I spend 8 hours at school, I come home and spend time with her then the last few hours of my day I play games and I never spend time with her? I am not allowed to do anything but do things with her apparently... :scratchhead:
That 6 months, we both off and on just left the house. Then we continued down the rocky road and thought we would try for a child, that would fix our issues. I found an ok job and benefits were good.
We would be together and be a happy family, sort of. Our child did unchain issues that were holding us back and communication became much easier, but off and on she still decides to use me as an emotional punching bag. I use to get into arguments with her, because she likes that, I would yell, she would manipulate. It was ridiculous. Her tongue is so sharp, she should have been an attorney.
I mean, this is all just the build up. I work hard, I mean I REALLY work hard and this new situation we are in is her fault. She even told me the other day that she feels like she is a roommate. I give hugs, kisses, sex, and love to a roommate? I ask her how her day is when we can see each other and I give her a break from our son on my days off. But I pay rent to a roommate, that's it. I don't love a roommate or have children with a roommate. But I believe this is all apart of "the games she doesn't play." In her words.
I don't know if I can keep up with this treating me like **** in front of my son. I don't want my son to grow up to know our relationship is healthy or normal. I don't want my son to grow up to know a woman can treat you like **** and you're suppose to put up with it or just deal with it because she is a woman.
I don't know what's really left of this relationship. I am not interested in kicking her to the curb or whatever. I don't know, just tell me what you think. I tried going back and revising the text above to the best of my ability. :thumbup:
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