I personally feel the same. However I'm a girl. I think the only difference between him and the rest of those that feel social alienation is that he lacked the low self esteem that's usually prevalent in the 'weird' kids. I'm not a virgin but honestly I think that's due to the fact that some guys will have sex with anything. I've never been able to talk to guys and even my so called boyfriend I lost my virginity too never had a proper conversation with me. I just end up ruining each and every male friendship I manage to gain. Most of the time they attempt to speak to me once and then never again. I think I seem unpenetratable and unsocial when really I'd love to talk. In the times they do talk to me I'm unable to be social as I would normally with people of the same gender. I think I hate men and this is the reason I am unable to be friendly towards them and ultimately end up ruining any friendship I have with them by being horrible.
It doesn't happen with men of all races though only men of the race I'm from which unfortunately enough is the race I find myself most attracted too.
Any advice to get over this it's actually quite weird. I don't feel like killing all men of the same race but who knows how I'll feel when I'm 22.
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