OK, it's more complex than the title. The chemistry between us, physical and personality wise is perfect. I get lust, but we get on perfect too. What's the problem? I have wanted to avoid a pregnancy, having had some major problems in my life, only just coming out of them, and not having the life circumstances, money etc to do it, and her being the age where she wants it soon, from what I can tell. OK maybe sounds weird but when the chemistry is that much and it's so tempting, I feared that pregnancy would happen, just sensing that we would be fertile together. I would like my life circumstance to be different, luckily enough I have got my own place now, but don't have much money and I would have to maybe uproot with her if she has the type of life plans I think she does. That said, we would be great together. It's just really ideally I'd have the serious partner and maybe kids etc later in life, when I got more money. So it's circumstances in the way of a perfect connection. But , I only realised how good this connection was in retrospect, and was trying to avoid commitment, a pregnancy etc. I was having a hard time choosing and trying to prioritise between two people I really liked. I know she was keen and I was aloof, trying to get my head together with all my problems despite being very attracted. So she was quite directly trying to attract me and was under my nose, now she's sort of gone off, and after a while when I was more together in life I tried to contact her, but maybe it came off too casual like an afterthought, or maybe she commited to someone else looking for kids etc soonish.
I know how much cehmistry we have and how much she likes me. What's my move to try and explain things better or get them going again. Maybe (I think shes away) I should just wait until she comes back and is working in my town again, she works near where I spend a lot of time, and I should leave trying to expain anything. We didn;t talk much but it was one of those attraction and looking into eacch toehrs eyes things that went off, and suych comfort with each other that we didn;t need to too much.,
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