Depressed, Isolated, Hypersexual, Disconnected - help needed!!

Thanks in advance if you read all the way through. Been home from uni for a while and have found myself isolated. I'm only in contact with a few of my college friends (lot of them fell out etc.) and have no job/money so spend most of my time alone. I'm not used to this having usually had a pretty good social life, during term time I'm constantly around people which makes it worse coming home to practically no friends. My family tell me to 'get out more' but really wouldn't know where to start. I have suffered with manageable depression from time to time in the past (that I suspect is Cyclothymia) but this 'episode' seems much worse. It's making me cynical in my outlook of the world and human nature. One of my best friends through school and college pretty much dropped contact over first year of uni to the point that now we don't speak at all bar a happy birthday. I've noticed this in a lot of other people too, they tend to gravitate towards me when I have something to offer but otherwise no contact, I know this is just a hars h reality but it still sucks. I'm going into my final year of uni with no internship or any idea what I want to do with my life, people around me seem keen on chasing the big money jobs but it's not as appealing to me. My only passions are perhaps slightly more creative but don't really have an outlet for that professionally. I can't feel any sexual connection with the girls I sleep with, I've never been 'in love' and don't think I'd ever be able to commit to a serious relationship. I just don't have much faith in monogamy and nobodies ever made me want to give it a go. There was one girl who I was slightly 'infatuated' with but we don't speak at all anymore, which feels a bit ****. She was probably the only girl who made be feel something. Otherwise it almost feels the rest of my relationships with girls are on autopilot, I feel I know what to do to sleep with them, then I wait until things are over (when I can't commit) So that's how everything is ****ed up, any help would be appreciated

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