Why can I not move on when the man I loved destroyed my life?

Let me start from the beginning. I found out my husband was cheating in March of this year. At the time, I had just given up my Naval Career of 11 years (VERY GOOD ONE) for my husband. He wanted me to be a wife at home and to be honest I wanted it too. I wanted to run my business fully and have a family. And I did not like how the Navy made me feel anymore. But the main reason was for my Husband who I loved and still love very much but he put it to me straight that if I did not get out that we would divorce. Well in October of last year I decided it was him and my family I wanted so all my energies was to that. He was surprised at how attentive I was ie (calling him to run his bath water and asking him what he needed when he got home) but I thought this would be pleasing to him. Well more and more he seemed distant and argumentive and I asked him what was wrong he would never say just snapped. Even at christmas I had a idea to do the 12 days of christmas and gave him a card and gift every day to be his maid to let him know I was here for him in every way. That also did not work out well. So in March I found out that not only was he (also in the Navy) was cheating but it was in his direct chain. She was an E5 and he is an E6 (we sign pg13 to not do this) but they did it. When I found out, he told me he wanted to move out then. I said NO. To give us time to see so he decided he would do that but this chick kept calling him everyday. I asked him to stop but it was mute. Then one day we were to talk and I made dinner waited for him and it was getting late and I was worried something was wrong when I said I wonder if he is with her so I looked at our phone bills and got her number and reverse looked up her address. And sure enough he was over at her house. I told both of them that we are all active duty and do you know they could get in trouble but she says "i dont care" Two weeks later he moved out. Thi s was in June. Since that time he kept telling me he was working things out but he was still seeing her. I was having female issues and kept complianing about it but he seemed not to care. Eventually I went to a real doctor outside the navy and found out I have stage II cervical cancer. Devistated I told him and he did not want to move home to help me when he was going through something similiar I was there for him. Then I found out I was pregnant. But it gets even better, he blew his knee out and lied to me and his friends of when he had his surgery so this girl could be there with him. He even posted these on facebook. He had surgery and then he comes over to see me and then leaves and when he gets over there to her starts yelling like we are arguing. I get up and drive over there did not go to the door but blow up my husbands phone well not on her property and calls the cops. Never set foot on her property well she not only got me arrested but put a restraining order. I had to pay an attorney to represent me and they got dismissed because the judge saw the truth. But it gets better. In October of this year I separated from the Navy and they gave me 50k. My husband filed for separation on 6 Oct and I got out on the 14th. That monday I recieved my severance and it went in the wrong account. Before I could even get to it my husband started paying my bill all except for one and paid off 10k of his bills including his car and said I did not steal your money. He left me with 2800 for me to use from October until Christmas which I was broke and reserve pay just is minor compared to what I was making. I am devistated, broke and alone. My son who is my blessing is all I think about when I push myself to increase my bookkeeping business. My husband not only wants me to move out of the apartment which I do not have a job to get another one but will probably file for divorce this month and I barely have money to live. I had to fight for medical care and 1700 spousal which I can not all at the beginning of the month for rent because he thinks that is not a good reason. His best friend has help me put together with all the evidence i have to turn him in the Navy but I have been hesitant thinking it was a phase and that he would see where he is wrong. But nothing has changed. I am suppose to be bed ridden but can not because I have to think about my unborn son. He even has his mother telling me two wrongs don't make a right and I should have not quit my job. But if you love someone you want to do what you can to make them happy. Everyone is telling me to turn him in and move on. But I think of my son and what will I say to him. But I am in so much pain and he is not her for me with my cancer and this difficult pregnancy that I want to make him pay for how ill he has treated me. He think he has done nothing wrong and that i am just acting like a victim. So now here i am broke with child and sick and I want to make him pay. But would I be wrong to punishing them both. This girl had the nerve to tell the judge in open court that he does not want to be with me anymore and this is right what he is doing. I am trying not to be bitter but i can not help hurting. I have thought so many times since the disrespect to just run them over with my car and every time I see good he does something to piss me off. It is very hard to function. Now the tramp he left me for is over on campus in the same building I am finishing my masters. It is effecting me royally. I HATE HIM AND WISH THE WORSE ON HIM. She smiles at me and makes me feel worse. I cant let it go because he took a lot from me. The VA court system is sorry and they allow him to steal and did nothing. Now because I have cervical cancer which was complicated with him giving me a std. The Navy Reserve wants to kick me out and because of that I have to pay a third of the 50k they gave me which he spent. That makes me hate him more. I am miserable. What do I do?

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