I feel so lost

I've had a best friend for a couple of years, and a couple of months ago we confessed we liked one another and we've been seeing one another. Last week his ex-girlfriend texted me general chit chat saying hi how are you type and saying she'll text me in the weekend for a catch up, she never did, the boy I like we have been slowly drifting apart in the last day or two he was busy mainly and also because he text his ex saying to leave me alone and asked her why she text me and he said now he feels confused about his feelings and his head is a mess and that we'll talk soon. I asked him if he's saying to talk soon out of courtesy or whether he means it, and he said he genuinely doesn't know. I said to him "you know where to find me if you want me I hope you do want me even if it's not in the way I originally hoped for because we get along really well" and he replied "I know and I don't want you out my life forever I just need space to work out what I want..." also his family life is also confusing because a big change is taking place a positive change but he was saying how change is always hard getting used to, even if it is positive. I said to him "I know working out what you want involves me but even then if you need someone to talk to you can talk to me in the same way we were friends I suppose, in tribute to that almost..." I also said that I'm really really happy for him that his family life is working out. He said to me "thanks that means a lot. I'll talk to you soon as I need to get my head together. I'm sorry" I said something else after that I said "Don't be I mean as someone who cares for you I just want you to be happy I'll talk to you soon then" but h e hasn't read my message. This was all about 10 hours ago. I feel really upset, lately I've lost a best friend and I just feel unappreciated and low in life before all this without him and now I feel worse. He was such an important part of my life and I really like him and want him in my life, obviously that's up to him now. I feel so lost, has anyone else any experience in this? What bugs me is this whole concept of "soon" I wish I had patience. I feel really alone as I have noone to talk to about any of this.

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