| And this is personal, mods, there's people I know in here now. Basically, my parents subconsciously just have tried to perpetuate all behaviours which count me as dependent, paint me as incapable of independence etc. They literally show no faith in me besides condescension, that I have any worth to the outside world, as made my little asides which are snide about me overestimating my interest to the world. They treat me like a peer, an old person, in what they expect from me socially, my sis went off and had a life, and I'm rthe one expected to see them, and still be their friend, they literally believe so much lower than what I am, they believe I'm worth nothing to the world. They've messed me up in the head, I can't relate or have a single successful relationship. And they keep ****ing expecting me to socialise with them fro things that aren't like family things, the things I should be doing with mates, but they show no concern ever that I wasn't. It's like they just don;t appreciate a living breathing human being who has dreams and has had them crushed. They don;t care and all they do is selfishly whinge about how they maybe don't have so many years left, not worried about my misery. It's like a near 70yrold Dad, when I mention the places I dream of going, doesn;t care if I got a GF, they never expect that of me, he starts planning we all go together, totally and utterly missing the point of my unfulfilled life. And then I start playing tennis again, I want to drive myself, and he insists on playing me, he's an old guy and I play half decent, not very intense, fijnd irt easy against him, and insists on saying how well I did, again-missing the point, I was aiming for a bit more than that level, it's like a metaphor for how much I am limited by them, and their utter indifference to it. There's other personal reasons why the future may not be great, why I've been more financially dependent on them beyond my control, and why I may not live very much longer than them, in fact I think I'll be gone before them, but again, that's not interesting to them. That whole generation is selfish more widely. Arggh it's just unhealthy, like my relationships, and they've never cared. | |||
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Anyone else feel their parents have totally stifled them?
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