| and suddenly they don't want it. Long story short, WH has been doing all manner of crap behind my back... basically since we got married. DDay was Dec 7, 2012 (found pics of the OW on his phone, which he promptly lied about - yawn). Fast forward... I'm still in limbo. I know ultimately this will end, but we have a child and it makes things harder than I would have imagined. Physically and emotionally, I have checked out. Told him so. No love, no sex, nothing. Told him that at the MOST, all I can offer is to stay for the sake of our kid and he can go on as before. I have no interest in a new relationship, so basically all I want is the ability to remain a SAHM (which would not happen if we divorce). Basically reducing him to a paycheck. Cold? Yep. 10 years of lies and betrayal gets you nothing but a block of ice. Still... I know he has "needs" (ohhhh boy, those needs!) and have given him the green light to continue as before. He can have all the wh0res and strippers in the world. It will basically be a "don't ask, don't tell" policy (although getting another woman pregnant will signal instant divorce. NO WAY will I have joint assets divvied up with some skank). Anyhoo, all things considered, I thought I was being rather generous. WRONG. WTF? Is it the fact that because I know and am OK with it that kills the thrill? He cries and says he is a changed man (still vehemently denying any PA though). He cries and says it is because he knows that I don't love him anymore. He says he doesn't want any part of his old life. Smothers me with affection. Plans date nights. I am not doing the 180. I honestly have checked out. Caring hurts, so I stopped. But the way he is reacting just confounds me. I am giving him what he wanted. What's the problem? Is it a guy thing to want to have his main woman's heart while having another woman's body? I am seriously not understanding this. | |||
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