Well I have not been on this site for many months. Life has thrown me a huge curve and I am not sure how to deal with it. First, I was let go from my job back in April. Although I am very glad to be out of there. It was a very toxic environment. However as the revenue was falling for the business our CEO starting to prop up his bottom line by demoting and firing most high salaried folks... Except for the one he was intimately involved with. Turnover is huge, expect for my department. I only lost one IT person in 4 years… Well ya know. (Red flag.. on multiple occasions.) Then I got the ax.
To make things worse I am fighting for unemployment insurance. I was surprised as to his actions as I had spent hundreds of hours supporting 5 businesses, with minimal staff. Over the 4 years I was there.. The CEO is being an ass. I was executive management and much to surprise have come up with a reason for my dismissal that was created and supported by HR. So now I am living off my savings and fighting for unemployment insurance.
With that said, here is my dilemma, my ex and I were starting to talk, go out and mending things. After a 30 year marriage it was positive and we both were getting along fabulously. We both know we do not have to be together, we were fine on our own, we both agreed it was a good experience to be apart.
She offered to have me move in with her to save money and search for a job. Which is awesome, I work around the house and help out like I used to. I pay rent, take care of her dog, all the typical things one does in a home. .... Side note, job hunting at 57 sucks.. Especially in Seattle...
She talks about things in long term statements like we will be going on a trip in spring for week, we will be doing this and that. Always referencing we will be together in the future. Which is good,
We have talked about this on a occasion that we should give it a try, however she does do things that make me feel like she is just buying time.
I am confused to what to do and how to move forward, we do not sleep together and have little physical contact. I know we have to build our relationship again. Which have agreed it will take time. We have history with each other and some of it was bad however mostly good. Stress did get to both of us in the past and we came apart.
At this point I am not sure how to precede, I do care about her and she does me, but to what extent I am unsure. As you can probably tell I am stressed out and feel like I am swimming nowhere fast. Job hunting causes terrible feelings of loss and hopelessness, and not sure where we stand is not helping...
I am finding that not having a center in my life right now is really tossing me for a loop.. I am typically pretty positive person however I am finding myself in this dilemma. No job, spending what I had worked so hard to save, Ex being helpful but not sure where it is going.
I am trying to make sense of this situation and where I am. I really do not want to move out of state for work but I may have too.
Sort of rambling but I guess I am looking for feedback and any suggestions that may help me get a footing again, possible direction or just plain talk to get my head back inline
Thoughts?
To make things worse I am fighting for unemployment insurance. I was surprised as to his actions as I had spent hundreds of hours supporting 5 businesses, with minimal staff. Over the 4 years I was there.. The CEO is being an ass. I was executive management and much to surprise have come up with a reason for my dismissal that was created and supported by HR. So now I am living off my savings and fighting for unemployment insurance.
With that said, here is my dilemma, my ex and I were starting to talk, go out and mending things. After a 30 year marriage it was positive and we both were getting along fabulously. We both know we do not have to be together, we were fine on our own, we both agreed it was a good experience to be apart.
She offered to have me move in with her to save money and search for a job. Which is awesome, I work around the house and help out like I used to. I pay rent, take care of her dog, all the typical things one does in a home. .... Side note, job hunting at 57 sucks.. Especially in Seattle...
She talks about things in long term statements like we will be going on a trip in spring for week, we will be doing this and that. Always referencing we will be together in the future. Which is good,
We have talked about this on a occasion that we should give it a try, however she does do things that make me feel like she is just buying time.
I am confused to what to do and how to move forward, we do not sleep together and have little physical contact. I know we have to build our relationship again. Which have agreed it will take time. We have history with each other and some of it was bad however mostly good. Stress did get to both of us in the past and we came apart.
At this point I am not sure how to precede, I do care about her and she does me, but to what extent I am unsure. As you can probably tell I am stressed out and feel like I am swimming nowhere fast. Job hunting causes terrible feelings of loss and hopelessness, and not sure where we stand is not helping...
I am finding that not having a center in my life right now is really tossing me for a loop.. I am typically pretty positive person however I am finding myself in this dilemma. No job, spending what I had worked so hard to save, Ex being helpful but not sure where it is going.
I am trying to make sense of this situation and where I am. I really do not want to move out of state for work but I may have too.
Sort of rambling but I guess I am looking for feedback and any suggestions that may help me get a footing again, possible direction or just plain talk to get my head back inline
Thoughts?
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