hello forum,
i am writing here because i don't know how to go any further in my marriage life.
we moved to the U.S. two months ago. my husband was stationed in germany.
currently i am pregnant, it was a big surprise.
we both are 41 years old. i brought children with me from previous relationship. the children calls him daddy and loves him deeply.
they love their new home.
it was nov/dec 2014 when i found out that my husband was cheating. RIGHT AFTER our beautiful wedding. i know there is so much more in the dark. he also cheated on me when he was on a business trip in november 2014.
we went to a counseling. we read books. did it help? just shortly. my pain seems to grow. i get angry out of the blue. there is no trust. i check his email and private things all the time (well, not anymore, i got tired of it). some days are great...it feels like i can move on and enjoy the marriage, but then again....i wake up , look at his face and behavior and i just want to flee. in my book he destroyed our marriage, my love, my trust, my peace, my joy. i wont get it back ever. i wonder 5 days in a week if i should really stay married. i read many times that the cheater often cheat again NO MATTER what he said or promised. the whole ****** ******* story is so discouraged . it seems no man can be faithful NO MATTER what the woman does.
i don't know what to do. should we live just like roommates in the house until the kids are older? is this a solution?
i am so depressed and lonely. i need help, but where do i get help?
:crying:
i am writing here because i don't know how to go any further in my marriage life.
we moved to the U.S. two months ago. my husband was stationed in germany.
currently i am pregnant, it was a big surprise.
we both are 41 years old. i brought children with me from previous relationship. the children calls him daddy and loves him deeply.
they love their new home.
it was nov/dec 2014 when i found out that my husband was cheating. RIGHT AFTER our beautiful wedding. i know there is so much more in the dark. he also cheated on me when he was on a business trip in november 2014.
we went to a counseling. we read books. did it help? just shortly. my pain seems to grow. i get angry out of the blue. there is no trust. i check his email and private things all the time (well, not anymore, i got tired of it). some days are great...it feels like i can move on and enjoy the marriage, but then again....i wake up , look at his face and behavior and i just want to flee. in my book he destroyed our marriage, my love, my trust, my peace, my joy. i wont get it back ever. i wonder 5 days in a week if i should really stay married. i read many times that the cheater often cheat again NO MATTER what he said or promised. the whole ****** ******* story is so discouraged . it seems no man can be faithful NO MATTER what the woman does.
i don't know what to do. should we live just like roommates in the house until the kids are older? is this a solution?
i am so depressed and lonely. i need help, but where do i get help?
:crying:
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