It fills me with loathing that I am asking this, but I also think it is indicative of a problem we have in our country, one some hate to admit we have.
I am still a little shaken up and trying to calm down enough to decide what I want to do, but I also felt the need to ask other people. We have engineers working on one of the lifts in our building and today one of them got in the lift with me. We sort of talked a little and he was trying to 'hit on me'. He asked for my number and I told him I had a partner and he said he did too but that didn't mean we couldn't 'have fun'. He kept asking me for my number so I gave it to him, fully intending to block it, dishonest as this is. He asked me if he could see me, I said I was very busy and work all the time. When the lift got to my floor he started trying to kiss me, I pushed him away and tried firmly to remind him that I had a partner but he wouldn't stop. In the end I said he could kiss me on the cheek, he said fine but didn't want to do that. He kept trying to aim for my lips and I started pushing him away, whilst trying to back away in a small lift. He backed me against the wal l and forced his lips as close to mine as he could, whilst I was twisted my head away as much as I could. Afterwards, he apologised as I was running out of the lift, clearly upset and crying. The first thing I did when I got in was scrub the feel of his facial hair from my face.
It pains me that I have to ask anyone when it feels so wrong to me, so much like a violation. I've been raped before, and back then I wondered if anyone would believe me. Now I'm wondering if this was my fault or if I'm overreacting. I wanted to make myself crystal clear but I was scared, he was aggressive and I was just scared.
Sorry if this isn't in the right place, wasn't sure where to post.
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