I know people are going to say what I am trying to do is morally reprehensible on every level, but please don't bother, because I already know this and I am taking this into account before proceeding.
A little about me: I am in my early twenties, I don't work, I live in London and I am well educated. I am single. (she knows this)
A little while ago I met a girl at a Costa Coffee, she started talking to me. I was using my laptop. Through a bit of chatting, I got her email address because I promised to send her something. I found out a little more about her: She's about 5 years older than me, she's a well-paid and well-educated professional who is living in London with her fiancé. The fiancé is some kind of consultant and frequently needs to make trips abroad. She spends 4-5 days alone in their flat.
After a lot of back and forth, I arranged for us to meet up for a coffee. We got along so ridiculously well. Then I got her number and we went to a couple of restaurants for dinner. All the while, she was difficult to convince and I used to do it under the pretence of this or that eg. 'Oh, I have a coupon but no one to go with' etc. Then we went on a walk in Hyde Park and went shopping a couple of times. Now making these meetings is so easy, wherever I want to go, she just agrees. We frequently go to places on a 1-to-1 basis; sometimes more than once a week. Walks, dinners, films - all kinds of stuff.
We talk about many deeply personal things. We know about each others families, relationships, aspirations, etc etc. She very rarely mentions her fiancé but it is clear things are not great between them; they cannot come to any arrangement where they spend sufficient time with each other. When we are together she doesn't stop giggling and a lot of the time she's touching my hands or trying to get closer. But its clear she's holding back. I think she's at the stage where she's emotionally confiding in me and wants to be around me but can't quite bring herself to physical intimacy.
I don't know how exactly to proceed. i don't want a long-term relationship with her at the moment because I can't handle that. What I want is just to have some fun. I think we would both benefit and the boyfriend won't know. May be I could turn it into a relationship later on.
Put the internet to work for you.
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