My boyfriend is 21 years older than me and after 4 months (5 months including the month we got to know each other)we still haven't had sex properly. Im in my 20's. We have actually known each other 8 years but not on a deep level. He knows I don't have the urge to have it and he has almost broke up several times because I show no passion but it's just how I am. I've told him what I'm like I've been honest and said that I don't have the urge for sex, most guys would leave me for this but he's still with me but it's clear how much it frustrates him. I can't just pretend/fake it though, I like cuddling that's about it. We tried intercourse twice but he lost his erection and blamed it on the condoms (it might be his age but I didn't say this). He keeps saying that I'm clueless which I am because ive never bothered with sex. The other areas of the relationship are fine he said he loves me and that other women want him but he isn't attracted to them. I'm not sure if he really likes me for me or if it's just my youth/that I'm a lot younger that he's attracted to. He has been out with someone older than him so it's not just young people he goes for.
Anyway im im going off topic. I don't want to keep dissapointing him but I find it hard to leave him. I've told him the best I can that I don't like sex but he is still with me getting me to 'relax and try'. He said it's my parents fault for how they brought me up I.e no hugs and not touchy feely and he said it might be because I'm an only child. He seems determined to get to the root of my 'problem' and says I don't feel the things that human beings should be feeling and that sex is what we were put on this earth for etc.
I hate dissapointing him every time he tries but he has the option of walking away, I'm not stringing him on because I've been honest with him and he knows I've no urge, I don't pretend or fake passion in anyway it's just non existent with me.
He needs someone who can give him what he wants but he says he really wants me and I leave him feeling cold all the time.
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