I couldn't think of a better name for the topic. I have been seeing this guy for the last two months. He seems to have everything together; he has a great job, a mortgage (currently looking at putting a deposit on another house), he has an active social life and he's travelled quite a bit.
Then there's me... I have a crappy retail job, I've only just been on a plane, I live at home, I wouldn't consider myself as ambitious. Due to my crappy job my social life barely exists and I rarely go out.
He always has ideas for places to go on dates and I would love to attend all. I don't expect him to pay for me, so I need to have the funds and 9/10 I make up an excuse not to attend to hide this. His response is usually ' don't worry xyz will still be there'. There was a two month gap between our dates and he's texto and calls me most of the time - so I'm not worried about him losing interest at this point. I do realise how important it is for us to meet up though, our last date was really nice.
All this aside we get on really well. The conversation flows and so on, but at times I feel like I'm a boring person. He'll have stories to tell about his exciting weekend plans and new ventures and I never do. we haven't spoken in a week and I'm not looking forward to the convo, I mean I want to hear from him.. But I.already know i have nothing interesting to say. He's seems genuinely into me, he mentions how he loves my little quirky moments and I make him laugh alot.
How do I stop comparing our lifestyles? I can't stop feeling like crap about my situation and feeling like avoiding talking on the phone (before anyone says anything I am working on getting a better job so I can live life)
Put the internet to work for you.
No comments:
Post a Comment