Hello
In my experience most people are kind and considerate to each other. I grew up in a stable family, my mother and father are very lovely people and they are like my best friends, we spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other's company immensely.
I was quite shocked to experience the most frightening rages from my husband where he would blame everyone all around him for issues that he created himself.
I was even more shocked to be spoken to like no one has ever spoken to me before - he used cruel words and behaviours to hurt me, and my daughter. He had unrealistic expectations of me and of her and he expected me to deprive her of basic necessities to make him feel better.
He was jealous of her and couldn't understand that my love for him and her was different love. I felt incapacitated and so helpless to make things different and I prayed and hoped things would be better because I loved him and was so devoted to him and to help him in his insecurities and inadequacies that he felt.
I ruminate trying to get past all the shock and pain and wonder if he really meant the terrible things he said to me, did he mean to be so mean? Did he realise how hideous his behaviour was? Did he deliberately mean to be so cruel to me?
I feel emotionally stuck and betrayed.
thanks
x
Nora
In my experience most people are kind and considerate to each other. I grew up in a stable family, my mother and father are very lovely people and they are like my best friends, we spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other's company immensely.
I was quite shocked to experience the most frightening rages from my husband where he would blame everyone all around him for issues that he created himself.
I was even more shocked to be spoken to like no one has ever spoken to me before - he used cruel words and behaviours to hurt me, and my daughter. He had unrealistic expectations of me and of her and he expected me to deprive her of basic necessities to make him feel better.
He was jealous of her and couldn't understand that my love for him and her was different love. I felt incapacitated and so helpless to make things different and I prayed and hoped things would be better because I loved him and was so devoted to him and to help him in his insecurities and inadequacies that he felt.
I ruminate trying to get past all the shock and pain and wonder if he really meant the terrible things he said to me, did he mean to be so mean? Did he realise how hideous his behaviour was? Did he deliberately mean to be so cruel to me?
I feel emotionally stuck and betrayed.
thanks
x
Nora
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