It's strange this.
To cut a long story short, I was out with a friend one night, it looked like she was flirting with me (hint: lots of physical contact, playful banter, footsies, etc - not flirting apparently!), so I asked her out, she gave me the "let's just stay as friends, I'd be a bad girlfriend" talk - you know, the talk you get when someone doesn't want to say a straight, neat no.
The logical side of me accepts this. She doesn't want to go out with me, she's still massively hung over her ex-boyfriend so yeah, Mr. Logic is fine with this.
The emotive side of me is in a total mess however.
So one of my friends gave her a lift from my mum's funeral - he later told me at the pub that he wanted to procreate with her. My response to this was to drink something like 8 double whisky's in half an hour, something as culturally obscene as this is.
(It was after this night when I decided to ask her out, btw.)
And even last night, I was invited out to play pool/snooker but I couldn't attend because hey, movie premier of a film I've been dying to see. When I arrived at my friend's (doing something together in the morning) I asked him who was there and when he mentioned the lass's name and the person who gave her a lift in the same breath, my heart kinda sank.
My heart then hit the floor with a massive thump when the friend mentioned that they were going out to a night club alone (just the two of them) - I went to bed shortly afterwards as I felt like everything was taken out of me.
And then was promptly up until 5am, thinking about why things don't match up - why am I fretting about this (I would have cried but I was sleeping in my mate's room...), I know she doesn't like me, and I believe he's not into her (he texted me one night, categorically stating this). My emotions are running cartwheels right over my logic and I'm really confused. It's not like me, it's like I've become super possessive over something I have absolutely no right to be even in the slightest possessive about. It's scary. I'm scared.
I can't tell her about this as well, because well, I don't know. What I do know though is that me+female haven't talked in about two weeks (I'd say a couple of days after I asked her out), probably as we're both working full time and partly as I don't want to go full out retard on her.
What do I do?
TL;DR Boy likes girl, boy asks girl out, gets rejected. Boy is feeling massively confused (and quite scared about everything).
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