She's a professional who works hard at the office and at home, the perfect wife and mother, funny and warm and kind. But she has a deep-seated lust that no one man could ever satisfy....
He's the guy everyone loves, always there in an emergency, adores his wife and children, a wonderful son and brother, who would do anything for his family. But he's been leading a secret life full of parties and drugs on his company's dime....
It's all about to blow up in their faces.....
Yes, I cheated. Long ago, after months of sexual rejection, I caved into my baser needs and I cheated. I was so lonely and felt so ugly and old and unloved.
But I didn't want some other guy - I wanted my husband. My husband, who I love completely, and I vowed never to stray again. I realized it was not just sex - it was intimacy that I craved.
Fast forward to this weekend...damn. How stupid is he? How stupid does he think *I* am?! Or maybe he wanted to be caught? Regardless, he left his email account open on my laptop, and I now have pages and pages of emails between him and other MEN, planning and then rehashing their sexual escapades.
Apparently, I'm not his type.
I think we could still come back from this except I also have evidence of drug use and theft from his previous employer (to finance the drugs, I imagine) and I cannot condone that! I cannot tolerate it!
So here I am, 35 years old, and I am trying to figure out how to confront my apparently bi/gay husband for being a thief and a liar, and a drug addict, and even after writing all that down and reading it in black and white, I STILL don't know if I want a divorce!
Has anyone ever faced all this and managed to come through with their marriage AND self-respect intact?!
He's the guy everyone loves, always there in an emergency, adores his wife and children, a wonderful son and brother, who would do anything for his family. But he's been leading a secret life full of parties and drugs on his company's dime....
It's all about to blow up in their faces.....
Yes, I cheated. Long ago, after months of sexual rejection, I caved into my baser needs and I cheated. I was so lonely and felt so ugly and old and unloved.
But I didn't want some other guy - I wanted my husband. My husband, who I love completely, and I vowed never to stray again. I realized it was not just sex - it was intimacy that I craved.
Fast forward to this weekend...damn. How stupid is he? How stupid does he think *I* am?! Or maybe he wanted to be caught? Regardless, he left his email account open on my laptop, and I now have pages and pages of emails between him and other MEN, planning and then rehashing their sexual escapades.
Apparently, I'm not his type.
I think we could still come back from this except I also have evidence of drug use and theft from his previous employer (to finance the drugs, I imagine) and I cannot condone that! I cannot tolerate it!
So here I am, 35 years old, and I am trying to figure out how to confront my apparently bi/gay husband for being a thief and a liar, and a drug addict, and even after writing all that down and reading it in black and white, I STILL don't know if I want a divorce!
Has anyone ever faced all this and managed to come through with their marriage AND self-respect intact?!
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