I had my first sexual encounter in a good few years a couple of days ago. I was on holiday and came back recently.
The girl I was with was as lovely as a person as she was passionate, but late the next morning I had to leave for my flight home and quickly decided to cut contact as I thought such a brief and intense fling would be unsustainable in the future. I considered that holiday is a kind of 'neverland' where overdoing it can lead to consequences worse than any possible immediate hurt from having to return to the grind.
In my head I know I absolutely did the right thing. As lovely as she was, a ONS isn't rosy for long if you stay in regular contact, let alone with a girl you meet on holiday. But my heart is hurting a lot right now, both at the regret of losing someone who I thought liked me (for once) and probably at having to come home too. Without wanting to flatter myself, I also feel guilty at how she might be feeling right now.
No help required, nothing to achieve by posting this: just another demonstration of unreasonable human emotions.
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