Firstly, I mean this thread in total seriousness
The recent californian homicides and the subsequent manifesto reminded me a lot of myself and it concerned me somewhat,
there are differences, I'm not a virgin but I haven't had sex with many women
However where we share similarities is our resentment towards women/the guys they are attracted to
I'm affluent like he was, drive a new BMW, middle class, etc ..
However I feel a certain level of distain of when I see girls who I desire having sex with other guys who I think are low-class, imbeciles
I have a deep seated resentment towards both the girl and the guy and often have thoughts of how I would make myself feel better by acting my vengeance upon on them via not so pleasant means
HOWEVER , I am aware that this isn't a healthy outlook and I would never act upon my wishes
This thread was created to ask for help, I know it's illogical/unhealthy for me to feel this way/look down upon them
however I don't know what to do to resolve things? how do I feel stop feeling seething rage at what I feel is injustice?
Like as an example;
This girl I used to talk to, when we first met she was single, I even got her a valentines day gift (an expensive one) and she was overwhelmed by it all, and hugged me
but soon after she said we couldn't date because she got a boyfriend on valentines day (I gave her the gift 3 days prior to)
I feel active resentment towards her, because I saw her boyfriend, he is much older than me, he is fat and not classically good looking, works a menial job
Whilst I have an Adonis-like body, affluent and have classic good looks, why she did choose him and not me ??
It bothers me to the point where I have thoughts of causing harm to her as 'punishment' for rejected me and choosing an 'inferior' guy
I would never act upon these, but it does concern me that I am having these thoughts
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