Trust Broken

My wife and I have been together for ten years married for 6 and have two children. The first year of our relationship was amazing, then one night she doesn't come home after being out with her sister and i did the most regretable thingn in my life and left her and moved back in with my parents. We got back together 6 months later, engaged a year after that and have been together ever since. Just after we were engaged and moved into our new home I suspected cheating after seeing that she was texting a past boyfriend more than she had been me. This guy was her first boyfriend ever, they dated a couple years in middle and high school and the story I got was he cheated on her and it was over.. Shortly after we moved into our new home she went out for a bachelourett party and was supposed to crash at my cousins house but I found her at his house that next morning... She claimed that she went bowling with friends after the party and everyone was too drunk to drive and they all crashed at this house. Swore up and down that nothing happened. but it did come out that while we were split up she had been seeing him . despite all the prof smacking me right in the face I believed her. At that point i told her for me to trust and believe what she is saying she can never talk to this person again. Fast forward 7 years later we're married have a great life, great kids. Last week we run into her friends and this man at a concert. our two groups of friends all know each other, we all went to HS together etc... so we ended up hanging with them most of the night. they didnt speak to my knowlege, he actually talked to me a couple times. Now this past weekend when she is out of town at another concert I noticed she was being real short with me. Not answering my calls after she had just sent me a text msg and so on. Something told me something wasnt right. So I checked the cell phone texts online and seen she was texting this same man for almost 5 hours straight that night from about 945pm-245am. 100 texts sent back and forth while she is at this concert, club, then laying in bed at the hotel. Then about a dozen the next morning... So I called him. He knows me I know him.. And it all comes out. That night of the bachlorette party she cheated on me. Before we were engaged she had been cheating. All this came from him. He said every time he sees me he has trouble looking me in the eye. He tells me how sorry he is. I can hear it in his voice... I asked if he talked to her that night at the concert and he said no, he made sure i could always see him. I asked if anything iniapropriate was said in the texts, he said just that she said she missed him... After talking with him I called my wife, asked who she had been talking with and after trying to hide it I called her out and told her I already spoke with him. I meet her at home and after pounding it out of her she admits to cheating with him back then. She doesn't remember the texts that night but just said they were about life and family. And of course she deleted them. She doesn't know why, "curiosity I guess" is what she said. She had been dri nking... I don't know what to do!.!. We have a life and kids, a home. It was always in the back of my mind that she cheated.. All the proof was there. But I loved her so much I chose to believe her. We moved on and have had a GREAT life since... Now this. NOW THIS! How can someone claim to love you, claim to be in love with you but do things like this?!?!? I feel like other things were said in those texts... Who talks about life and family to someone that they supposedly don't care about... for that long? That late at night? 5 hours of texting!!! Why did she do it? Why does she even care about him at all? Once again just like before its not adding up. I feel like There's more she's not telling me... God Im so in love this woman.. You have no idea.. Very few people experience a love like this.. I don't want friends and family to know, so I can't ask anyone for advice. I want to keep asking her questions but can't because I don't want to her to hurt. All I do is think and try to figure out which leads to more questions. So I came here, hoping for hope. She's been very remorseful since its happened. When she's around I love her, I want to show her everything will be ok, that we'll get through this. She does the same. But when she's gone, I think and get mad and come up with more questions to try and get the truth out. I guess what I'm looking for is advice on what to do next... Do we stop talking about it and move on... Can I keep talking to her about it to try and get more answers? Should I keep quite to prevent her from hurting? But what about me? I've not done anything to her but treat her like a queen and she tells me this all the time.. Is she lying? Is she not happy? She said we have a perfect life but if its so perfect why would she do this???? I feel she might be hiding the truth to prevent further heart ache but I feel that's what we need if we're going to move on. Should i ask her what she learned about him through those texts??? Shoud I call him again to get more answers? I'm I wrong for thinking its not ok to text a man like that even if nothing sexual or emotional was said? Sorry for the long post, I just wanted you to know our history so you could help.. I believe him, I thanked him for telling the truth, he didn't have to. If he told me the truth about the cheating I feel like he would about the texts. I don't know... Maybe not.

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