PUA has messed up my head

So my housemate last year was into PUA and one day I flicked through some of his stuff and its ****ed with me. (Disclaimer: PUA is a load of ****, my mate still doesn't get laid, the parts which aren't elaborately cringey routines are things that anyone whose half functioning in social situations can work out) Anyway, there was one long section of psychology of attraction and when I read it I felt a sixth sense open up. This book detailed how and why women are always attracted to the most powerful and preselected (men who have the most options) guys. Now everywhere I look I see this covert game. Over the years I've been pretty reckless sexually but reading this opened it all up, I thought of girls who had cheated on their boyfriends with me even though they were perfectly alright dudes, I thought of girls I'd slept with that nobody else knew about and how everyone seemed to think of them as pillars of purity. It seems as though women are ready to trade-up if the opportunity arises (as are men, I'm not women-bashing here) and how nobody truly ever knows anyone. It's all just a facade. Now I can sense when a girl isn't fulfilled, even couples other people think are happy I can see through. It's messing with my head and I can't retain much faith in monogamy. Anyone have any suggestions on how to break out of these thought patterns that this bull**** has programmed into me, or is this just reality and was I naive before?

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