Please Dont Judge me...Need Advice

Hello to all, I was away from this forum for a few months because I thought the ex and I were doing good. Well as it turns out, I am more heartbroken than ever. There are no children and no marriage involved. Short Story: We started going out in 2010, he seemed perfect, we even moved in together and he was very open and honest until Sept 2012. I broke up with him in September because he told me that he wanted to try things with his ex. I left the apartment and about a week after, he comes crying to me that he made a big mistake. The worst part was that he left out that during that week that he was trying to contact her, she didnt want to pick up the phone on him, which influenced him to beg for forgiveness. I took him back oblivious to the fact that he couldn't get in contact with her during that week we broke up. February: Back to yesterday, I went on his Sprint Bill and found out that he had been trying to contact her. At first he denied it, but then he told me that he did. I immediately packed up my stuff to leave, but I didn't want to leave without knowing why he kept me there as a backup, and this is what he said: "Everything was a lie, I never loved you because I always have her in the back of my mind. This relationship was perfect and it brought me happiness but you could be the best woman in the world and if you're not the one I want, it doesn't work. At least you found out now instead of a few months or years later when you came home and found all of my stuff gone. Now can you please get out of the house so that I can go and talk to her and take her out on a date cuz I believe that I still have a chance with her". OMG!!! I was so heartbroken. I was there for him when he was job searching, when he bought his new car, I helped him with his school work, I cooked and cleaned for him, never lied to him and was completely loyal. Now I'm at my mothers searching for a place to live while he's out there being all happy because he finally is with the person "he loves". I need advice because I feel like I'm going crazy. Please help. :confused:

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