Ton of medical issues.

Hello. I have some concerns about dating and relationships because of my extensive list of medical issues. I am starting from the beginning so this might be a bit of a overwhelming story. Two months after I was born I got sent to the hospital for a case of pneumonia. It was revealed then that I had contracted HIV from my mother (she dies when I am 3), who shared a needle, and that the doctors neglected to tell her I was exposed. During my 8 month stay at the hospital my medical care was sloppy, at best. Close to the beginning of my visit a doctor did not use a properly sterilized IV needle, which is ironic, this caused an inline infection on my legs and stunted their growth at different rates. I am about 5'11 but should be about two inches taller. While I was still battling pneumonia I had to be put in a infant incubator because my system got so weak to was considered, back then anyway, to have full blown AIDs. I lost count of how many scars' I had from tubes manually doing everything for me. As I got worse my fever kept going higher. I peaked out at 106 degrees and stroked. The stroke paralyzed my right arm and legs, which I can move fine now thanks to a 1/5 of my life of rehab, and caused Cerebral Palsy. Still not sure if I was lucky to get the mixed variant. My muscles lock up sometimes other times I am to tired to move them and sometimes I just drop to the ground because I 'forgot' how to move them or they go spastic. Though I am not sure if being tired is partly thanks to my HIV medicine. While the doctors where battling the fever they went over the dosage rates. This completely killed the main nerve in my right ear. Making me partially deaf. Now a days I look like a normal kid unless you take off my shirt. The limp is mostly corrected my a 1 inch lift. Now here is the issue with relationships for me. I simply have not had any. And am not sure how to have any considering all these issues and paranoia I have. I read a story on here about a guy who had Cerebral Palsy and he couldn't preform and his wife cheated on him. And I have HIV which people with HIV are apparently not known to be intimate. Plus I can't do things that are considered 'fun' like drinking, drugs, making out, etc which lucky for me that all anyone does around here. I have been through so much and statistically only 1/3-1/4 the way through my life, I am 20. I simply do not have the time or energy, thank you Cerebral Palsy, HIV, and HIV Medicine, and to depressed already to deal with cheaters, insecurities, or having a girlfriend/wife that is physically unappeased but won't say anything. Anything I should do or try to make it easier for any future girlfriend/wife? What are you stories of your spouse with Medical issues? Any general advise? Thank you for reading!

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