| Basically, I'm 19 and in my second year at uni. I've only ever had one boyfriend which was in 1st year at uni and lasted about 3-4months. I lost my virginity to him within about 3-4 weeks of knowing him. Anyway, my point is that I am not that experienced when it comes to guys. I had sex a few times with my ex when I was with him and it was because I was comfortable around him. But, when it came to talking to him, I was really shy/quiet with him and I think it bored him sometimes. I feel like when I meet new people (boys & girls) I'm always that awkward person that they have to make more effort to keep the conversation going. But with my closest friends I can talk to them for ages, even if sometimes it's about boring stuff. I met a guy through a fashion show this semester and he has met up with me outside the fashion show rehearsals etc. We have chilled at his place a few nights and went for a walk, and for a drink on other nights. Although we are just getting to know eachother I do try and make conversation but I feel like he expects me to be the chatty one and I just don't know what to say sometimes. The last time I seen him, he kissed me.. and said how he had wanted to kiss me for a while now. He said that he wanted to have oral sex with me (not in those words lol) and wanted to take things further right there and then. I wasn't prepared for it, felt too soon and was a bit worried because I've not done that before. So I came up with an excuse and he was fine about it. He then offered to get some food together but it was a bit late and I wanted to go home cos I had an early start so I just explained that. He walked me to the bus stop and waited until the bus came and gave me kiss when I went. I really don't know whether to carry on with this guy. Mainly because he is on a year abroad from USA and will be going back in june so nothing serious will come from it. I would like a serious relationship at this point in my life. But I haven't met the right guy yet. I don't know if it's ok for me to keep things casual with guys… do I have sex with him? And would it make him respect me less if I did e.g. I don't want him to text me or just want to meet up everytime he wants sex. How can I have boundaries? ALSO, I feel so boring and really don't know how to open up to him and keep conversations funny and interesting. Should I carry on and see how things go? Or just leave it and not meet up with him? It's just I can't completely cut him off cos he was in the fashion show too so we now have mutual friends. Also, if I did do anything with him, I'm scared he will tell people.. but then I guess this depends on the kind of guy he is. How do you get to know what kind of guy someone is? And should I be honest about my past relationships and lack of experience with guys if he ever asks?? SORRY FOR ALL THE QUESTIONS AND THANK YOU! | |||
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