I'll try to make this as short as I can;
(She's Hindu)
- Met girl about 3 years ago at a mutual friends party.
- First impressions; 10/10 would marry (but in all seriousness, she was attractive and had
an awesome personality)
- We started texting shortly after.
- Eventually stopped talking altogether (No reason).
- Started talking again 6 months later, she invites me to her party.
- I accept the invite, but party gets cancelled.
- Start talking again somewhat frequently
- I develop a huge crush on her.
- She takes a 2 month holiday, I had no idea, didn't speak for a while.
- We finally start talking again, she asks me stuff about my personal life (If I have a gf, if I'm seeing anyone, past relationships etc)
- We meet up during holidays with the other mutual friend and go watch a movie and have dinner.
- Went great, we spoke a lot, no awkwardness, playful hitting etc.
- After this we spoke a little more, then again stopped talking out of nowhere.
- I finally tell out mutual friend that I have a crush on her.
- He basically tells me it's useless, she's Hindu and will only ever go out with someone her religion and race.
- Mutual friend speaks to her about dating other guys, but no use.
- I realise a new dude popped up on her Snapchat best friend list (feels incoming).
- Find out a month later her and this dude kissed. ;'(
- She's contacts me again after a while, says we need to meet up and do something again etc etc.
- I reluctantly agree.
- So during summer, we meet up with the mutual friend and another girl.
- We spent a few hours together beforehand and it was just awkward. Mostly small talk.
- She spent a lot of time texting. I assume the Snapchat guy.
- The 4 of us play a game of truth and dare.
- She continues to ask me questions about personal life, same as before (if in relationship, if seeing anyone atm etc etc)
- She basically spends most of the day texting.
- The mutual friend INFRONT OF ME says "Hahahaha are you texting your bf" and she just blushes and says nothing.
- Fast forward a few days, find out she's seeing the guy, but they're not together.
- I die A LOT inside. Due to a few past bad experiences with relationships, I finally end up cracking, I didn't eat anything for about a week or two.
- She'd still occasionally try and talk to me via text, but the conversations quickly went nowhere.
- Fast forward to about 2 months ago. I notice the dude isn't on her Snapchat best friends list anymore. She also had a bunch of depressing pics on Whatsapp like "Ohh I don't need you in my life blah blah" I assumed it was over.
- I still didn't bother contacting her.
- I send a mass message out a few weeks ago "Who's up for dinner", she replies almost instantly and says "ME", I reply with "Okay, tonight at 5", she cancelled last minute.
- She messages me the next day asking to go shopping with her in a few weeks.
- I say "Okay" reluctantly.
- Notice the dude is back on top 3 best friends list again.
- Feel like cancelling and not going.
- She also often stops replying mid texting, she did this from the start, but SOMETIMES she'd pick it up again the next day.
Okay, to everyone who read my novel, thank you! My main question is, I went through two of most depressing weeks of my life because I essentially can't be with her, no matter what. On the days that we did go out, she spent most of it texting, which just made me feel like ****. Yet somehow in my head, I still think I can make her like me, even though I know that I can't. As I said, she's really attractive and has a likeable personality, but I don't think it's worth putting myself through this ****. What would you do?
I know a lot of this was irrelevant, but I wanted to make things as clear as possible!
Thanks!
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