Been friends with this guy for a few years and mistakenly told him I had feelings for him whilst away at University last year because I missed him loads. I used to see him every day because we used to work together. The distance and not seeing him got to me and I just needed him to know. Now this guy is completely introverted hardly says anything about his own feelings but tended to be a little more open to me.
Once I told him how I felt I also said that I didn't expect a reply and we can stop being friends if he found it awkward. He eventually told me that I meant a lot to him didn't want to lose me as a friend. I told him something along the lines that I really like him, don't wanna know what you think of me (stupid I know but I was really upset at the time cos I felt like I had met someone amazing and not we were so far away from each other and had if he told me he only saw me as a friend it would have completely shattered my self esteem at the time)
(The reason I said I didn't want a relationship was because I am from a religious family (I am not but you catch the drift) he is white atheist it would be complicated, but I don't want to make this about that)
Anyways I told him I wasn't gonna cut all contact for a while until I re calibrated. So a month later we began speaking again and it was great, I friendship was back to what it was and he was still loving and looking out for me.
Over a year and a half has passed since all that and now he is being horrible to me. Really short. As if he is pushing me away? He always talked to me for hours, now nothing and silly as this sounds he stopped putting x's at the end of messages. I don't know what's going on haven't met up for months and he because he is an introvert it is impossible to get anything out of him. I really don't want to lose him as a friend. He helped me through lots of personal problems and is always there for me and I like to think i have been good to him too.
Shall I just leave it now and let the friendship fade out since it's one-sided now? :(
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