I cheated on, and then ended things with my ex a while ago. There were issues in our relationship, mostly in regards to differences in expressing affection and issues with compatability in regards to sexual fulfillment/sexual comfortabilty.
I certainly should not have cheated, and I genuinely regret that I did. The pain I caused was not worth it, not even a little. Anyone thinking about cheating, just don't , seriously. Just leave. So much simpler.
With that said, cheating and telling him about it, did not make me want to run and salvage the relationship. It simply solidified what i'd already felt, that we weren't intimately compatible. During the days after telling him, and the arguments and fighting, he expected and I expected that I would be distraught and desperate to keep him/us, but I wasn't . I was ambivalent. There was no strong desire from me to make him forgive, I absolutely wanted him to forgive me, but not for me. I wanted him to forgive me so he could move on and not be stuck with the pain of having a cheating (slvtty, crappy, horrible, etc) ex-gf.
He texted me recently, asking if I missed him and if I was waiting for him to take me back, I didn't respond. I do miss him, but not like that. I miss our companionship, he was a great friend. Incredible really, always there for me. But that push to reconcile, its not there for me, at all. Should it be? Do I lack a conscience?
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I certainly should not have cheated, and I genuinely regret that I did. The pain I caused was not worth it, not even a little. Anyone thinking about cheating, just don't , seriously. Just leave. So much simpler.
With that said, cheating and telling him about it, did not make me want to run and salvage the relationship. It simply solidified what i'd already felt, that we weren't intimately compatible. During the days after telling him, and the arguments and fighting, he expected and I expected that I would be distraught and desperate to keep him/us, but I wasn't . I was ambivalent. There was no strong desire from me to make him forgive, I absolutely wanted him to forgive me, but not for me. I wanted him to forgive me so he could move on and not be stuck with the pain of having a cheating (slvtty, crappy, horrible, etc) ex-gf.
He texted me recently, asking if I missed him and if I was waiting for him to take me back, I didn't respond. I do miss him, but not like that. I miss our companionship, he was a great friend. Incredible really, always there for me. But that push to reconcile, its not there for me, at all. Should it be? Do I lack a conscience?
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