"People think being alone makes you lonely, but that's not true. Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world." (Kim Culbertson)
I got married very young and I picked the wrong person. I thought I was in love, but I wasn't. We got married because of family pressure and because it was the next step in our relationship. Neither of us knew ourselves very well yet, let alone what we wanted in a spouse. I think he's just as disappointed as I am, but he won't deal with it.
20 years and 4 children later (ages 5-15), we're married in name only. We are roommates, not spouses. When we talk it's only about the kids or the running of the household. We are kind to each other and we never fight, but our relationship has no depth and no intimacy.
He has rebuffed my attempts to work on our marriage so often that I've given up trying. I am grateful he's a good father and I admire his work ethic, but that's about the total of my feelings for him. My prevailing emotion towards him is pity.
I've considered leaving many times but stay for the sake of the kids. I feel like a dishrag for putting up with this for so long, but I can't see how breaking my kids' hearts for my own selfish reasons is right.
Lots of adults whose parents divorced after they had grown say they knew there were troubles and they wished their parents had just gotten it over with while they were young. But they say that as adults. As kids, would they really have wanted their parents to divorce? I don't think so.
I'm lonely, frustrated, depressed, and oh, so bored! Please tell me I'm not the only one.
Thanks.
I got married very young and I picked the wrong person. I thought I was in love, but I wasn't. We got married because of family pressure and because it was the next step in our relationship. Neither of us knew ourselves very well yet, let alone what we wanted in a spouse. I think he's just as disappointed as I am, but he won't deal with it.
20 years and 4 children later (ages 5-15), we're married in name only. We are roommates, not spouses. When we talk it's only about the kids or the running of the household. We are kind to each other and we never fight, but our relationship has no depth and no intimacy.
He has rebuffed my attempts to work on our marriage so often that I've given up trying. I am grateful he's a good father and I admire his work ethic, but that's about the total of my feelings for him. My prevailing emotion towards him is pity.
I've considered leaving many times but stay for the sake of the kids. I feel like a dishrag for putting up with this for so long, but I can't see how breaking my kids' hearts for my own selfish reasons is right.
Lots of adults whose parents divorced after they had grown say they knew there were troubles and they wished their parents had just gotten it over with while they were young. But they say that as adults. As kids, would they really have wanted their parents to divorce? I don't think so.
I'm lonely, frustrated, depressed, and oh, so bored! Please tell me I'm not the only one.
Thanks.
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