Ok here goes... I need some advice here and I have some confessions to make.
It started in year 8. I was one of those girls who was desperate for a boyfriend. So my "friends" (long story) said I should try and get with this friend of there's. So we chatted for a bit and I would chat to him any chance I could. Problem was a. I was pretty boring and b. Incredibly clingy. It was obvious I was talking to him because I wanted a boyfriend. I see that now.
Fast forward a few months. I was still all sad and pathetic from before so my friend found this random guy who I had mutual friends with and convinced me to add him. We got chatting and clearly I was being clingy again because he asked "do you like me?" It sickens me to write this next bit. I, being a ****ing idiot, thought he liked me and not sure how I felt "I don't know. I just want things to develop over time." I was 12 ok... Still stupid I know but... No I really have no excuse.
Fast forward to year 9. I got back in contact with the first guy. One of the first things I asked was why he was wearing a wig in his profile picture. He wasn't. Enough said.
And finally at the end of year 9/beginning of year 10 I asked my friend if she knew any single guys. I friended said guys and talked to them way too much once again being boring as hell. I was like a Venus bloody fly trap.
I am now in year 13 and know how pathetic I must sound. But I don't talk to guys at all really. I'm kind of introverted. There's a guy I have a small crush on (sorry for the immaturity) but other than that I just don't even try anymore. I can't even talk to guys. I genuinely have the typical rom com heroine response, no exaggeration. I'm just scared if I ever did get into a relationship they'd find out about all this horrendousness. I mean there's a reason this is an anonymous thread. People always tell me "We all do embarrassing things; it doesn't matter." Be honest, does anyone do this many?
It started in year 8. I was one of those girls who was desperate for a boyfriend. So my "friends" (long story) said I should try and get with this friend of there's. So we chatted for a bit and I would chat to him any chance I could. Problem was a. I was pretty boring and b. Incredibly clingy. It was obvious I was talking to him because I wanted a boyfriend. I see that now.
Fast forward a few months. I was still all sad and pathetic from before so my friend found this random guy who I had mutual friends with and convinced me to add him. We got chatting and clearly I was being clingy again because he asked "do you like me?" It sickens me to write this next bit. I, being a ****ing idiot, thought he liked me and not sure how I felt "I don't know. I just want things to develop over time." I was 12 ok... Still stupid I know but... No I really have no excuse.
Fast forward to year 9. I got back in contact with the first guy. One of the first things I asked was why he was wearing a wig in his profile picture. He wasn't. Enough said.
And finally at the end of year 9/beginning of year 10 I asked my friend if she knew any single guys. I friended said guys and talked to them way too much once again being boring as hell. I was like a Venus bloody fly trap.
I am now in year 13 and know how pathetic I must sound. But I don't talk to guys at all really. I'm kind of introverted. There's a guy I have a small crush on (sorry for the immaturity) but other than that I just don't even try anymore. I can't even talk to guys. I genuinely have the typical rom com heroine response, no exaggeration. I'm just scared if I ever did get into a relationship they'd find out about all this horrendousness. I mean there's a reason this is an anonymous thread. People always tell me "We all do embarrassing things; it doesn't matter." Be honest, does anyone do this many?
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