Okay so im thinking of withdrawing from my studies cause things have not been going well from day 1 this year. I am so behind in everything and im not too sure how things will turn out at the end of the year.I'm not sure if my uni does retakes ( like the whole year) without a compelling reason (illness etc). I made an appointment with an adviser to talk about leaving but how on earth do i tell my parents i wanna leave. When i think about it, i feel that i'm lacking the skills to complete this course,it's been through God's grace that I've made it to my final year. I feel that i should have started with a foundation course but no i went with what everyone else was doing i thought 'Hey the fee this year will be £3000 if i apply next year it'll be £9000 so i should apply while it's still 3000. In my heart of hearts i felt that i should do a foundation course or take a creative arts course in sixth form /collage instead before going to uni right away but i ignored what i felt in my gut and went for the BA-hons.
I was so excited during 1st year but in the 2nd yr i slowly began to hate my course and began to feel I made a mistake in my taking the subject im doing, depressed i pushed those thoughts away cause i thought, my mum's putting so much effort into giving me a place to stay and taking care of our family and supporting me that i should stick to what im doing as well now in 3rd year i keep crying on my own feel so miserable, so insecure, so confused, so lost, i end up eating to comfort myself, i lost weightto boost my confidence but gained it back cause of the eating. i want to stay in my room all day i end up avoiding things, i've become so anti social it's not even funny. Im shy yes but, this timidity has gotten worse.
My mum supports our family and has done so for a long time, finding a job in the sector my dad wants is hard, so he tried so many paths and courses.....( long story). She gives me a place to stay she's been through a lot for me but right now im not happy where im at i don't think i'll do well. So it's either fail or withdraw. She's having a hard time right now how on earth do i tell her i wanna leave uni. I mean personally im getting more and more depressed, as the year goes i have gritted my teeth and kept on going so far but right now i don't think i can grit my teeth and take it anymore. If i fail i don't know what i'll do or where i'll go. Im feeling so lost right now even if im doing my course i still feel so lost i'm supposed to know where im going right now right, where i'll be i future well i don't and that sorta scares me. if i leave now i can take a break and think of were i want to be or hon my skills( take lower level course) so i can redo my course in the future because right now i feel like im not gonna get anywhere even after im done his year. if i do decide to leave how do i tell my parents.
I can apply for a job and save money to take lower level course next year, then after take my final year as a top up course. Im in my final year and i feel that i aint gonna pass this year im lacking in the skills i need and generally not happy with what im doing, i don't think i did well in a unit that weights 40% so.....
I was so excited during 1st year but in the 2nd yr i slowly began to hate my course and began to feel I made a mistake in my taking the subject im doing, depressed i pushed those thoughts away cause i thought, my mum's putting so much effort into giving me a place to stay and taking care of our family and supporting me that i should stick to what im doing as well now in 3rd year i keep crying on my own feel so miserable, so insecure, so confused, so lost, i end up eating to comfort myself, i lost weightto boost my confidence but gained it back cause of the eating. i want to stay in my room all day i end up avoiding things, i've become so anti social it's not even funny. Im shy yes but, this timidity has gotten worse.
My mum supports our family and has done so for a long time, finding a job in the sector my dad wants is hard, so he tried so many paths and courses.....( long story). She gives me a place to stay she's been through a lot for me but right now im not happy where im at i don't think i'll do well. So it's either fail or withdraw. She's having a hard time right now how on earth do i tell her i wanna leave uni. I mean personally im getting more and more depressed, as the year goes i have gritted my teeth and kept on going so far but right now i don't think i can grit my teeth and take it anymore. If i fail i don't know what i'll do or where i'll go. Im feeling so lost right now even if im doing my course i still feel so lost i'm supposed to know where im going right now right, where i'll be i future well i don't and that sorta scares me. if i leave now i can take a break and think of were i want to be or hon my skills( take lower level course) so i can redo my course in the future because right now i feel like im not gonna get anywhere even after im done his year. if i do decide to leave how do i tell my parents.
I can apply for a job and save money to take lower level course next year, then after take my final year as a top up course. Im in my final year and i feel that i aint gonna pass this year im lacking in the skills i need and generally not happy with what im doing, i don't think i did well in a unit that weights 40% so.....
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