Separated - Should I just move on?

Hi everyone, my story isn't that much different then most of yours, (unfortunately). So i'll summarize with bullet points to save your eyes and hopefully get effective advice from y'all. Background: - We're high school swt hearts; been together for 10yrs, married for less than 2. - Her mother past away late last year due to cancer. - We moved to TX shortly after to start our new lives/marriage. - A few months later, we separated. First I was going to move out but she ended up leaving because we were fighting on a daily basis. A lot of resentment and anger towards each other. She claimed being numb to me and our marriage. - We both tried to start our business the last 2yrs; a lot of stress; financial stress; unfortunately didn't work out and had to let it go. Her mother passed away a month later, then we moved (per above note). -Our relationship was strained because i was very irritable and easily frustrated due to the business. But in general, i wasn't the best husband as i should have been for her (BIG regret on my part). not making up excuses that i was an ******* toward her on and off. Lost my temper/was a hot head (resulted of my type A personality sadly). - There was not any physical abuse, we are both faithful for the last 10yrs (never thought of anyone else but her). - lost of intimacy, spark, and that general happiness Where we are today - separated for a little over 2months. - i brought up divorce a few times (again big regret .on my part; she moved out because of it) - she wants her space to heal from the hurt i cause. - she says she still loves me but afraid to come back because she can't recover - there isn't anyone else in the picture - I'm still madly in love with her but find myself putting up a solid shield against her to prevent myself from getting hurt. - been to marriage counseling for 2 months - she didn't want to follow the advice of our counselor and continue with her space request. - i worked my ass off the last 2 months to turn around; be a better person and husband she deserves (no more loosing my temper, learned to REALLY listen to her, see things from her perspective, don't get defensive during conversations, even worked out 5-6 days to be physically attractive for her). - very proud of my progress; even our counselor recognized my progress but she hasn't really seen it - she has a hard time trusting me still. - she can't get past the old me, our old past to be able to rebuild our relationship and move forward. she has a big shield up and always making up excuses as to why she shouldn't move forward instead of looking at the future and new me. - she wants more time apart to make sure my changes are permanent and she can heal - the longer we are apart, the more we are drifting from each other. our counselor expressed this concern too - we see each other once a week, text in between but i found the texting too impersonal and reduced the interaction - she believes seeing each other 4-5 hrs a week will actually help rebuild our marriage. i don't think this will work, 4-5hrs + task oriented texts in between? really??? - i started to build resentment towards her lately because she isn't recognizing how hard i worked to change myself, she is making this more difficult than it needs to be, she rather go out with her coworkers (all females) for dinner and drinks instead of saving our marriage, she is up late talking to friends instead of figuring out how to fix us and save 10yrs. again this is just my perspective. she says that she needs others to talk to and i am not her priority anymore. our marriage isnt a priority for her at the moment. - she continues to ask me for more time to try to fix us but still maintains her space apart - the space is pushing me away and i find myself care less and less for her. i dont want to feel this way but i cant help it. - she dismissed this grave concern each time i bring it up. she thinks i will still be here in a month or two or whenever she decides shes ready to come home. i may not. Moving forward - with the space, it's pushing us apart, i don't see a point of trying for another month or two if we only text, a few hours a week. - i'm losing feelings and desire for the marriage each day and week we are apart. i am trying to replace resentment with good feelings but still hard - i feel she is making this more difficult than it needs to be, and its turning me away - my course of action right now is to avoid her because of her state of mind and give her all the space she needs. - at the end of the month, i am planning to file the divorce so i can fully heal and move on. what's the point of sitting around dragging our feet with this pathetic texting and a few hours a week. i dont feel this lack of effort will do anything but waste both of our times. would love to hear your thoughts.

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