Feeling really, really depressed - I haven't got any friends.

I've just come home from school today feeling absolutely dreadful ... there is no word to describe how low I feel. I have not got a single friend in the whole world. I thought I was making friends with a boy at school, but I heard him talking to his mate today about all the people he was gonna invite to his "party", and some of the people he listed are in our class, and he didn't mention me. I actually thought I had made a sort of friend with him. I feel so down about this. I so wish he was my friend, but he doesn't want to be mine. :( He is the only person I talk to at school. I feel utterly dejected that he doesn't consider me a friend. I feel SOOOOOOOOO lonely. I feel dead inside. I spend all my time alone. I feel like constantly crying, I just wish someone would show me some attention. Nobody notices me, nobody cares about me. I'm just the weird mute girl who sits by herself and doesn't talk to anyone. I'm so shy that you wouldn't believe it. I can't talk to people unless they talk to me first. I'm so shy I can barely keep eye contact with people, I can't ever speak up in front of a group. I keep my eyes down. I can't bear speaking to people. Can't bear doing anything that draws attention to myself. It's going to be SO embarrassing for me on the last day of Sixth Form. Everyone else is gonna be hugging and crying and signing shirts. I'm gonna be sat in the library on my own. It's so humiliating not having any friends. I want them so badly I just feel sick. I just want a friend who likes me as much as I like them, who has all my interests (pretty standard, mainstream stuff I'm into) and is quiet and antisocial (but in desperate want of a friend) like me. I've been in this school since year 7, and it's so lame that I haven't got any friends. I've been rejected by everyone so I've kind of built a little shield up inside myself. Worst thing is, I don't think anyone is ever going to want to be my friend. I'm too outcasted by society. :( I just so want a companion. :( Anyone else feel the same? I'm just posting this cause I hate suffering in silence and it feels good to know that others have read it ...

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