Okay So, here we go - I've been single all my life and several factors come into contribution to this. 1) I've been to a same sex school (Boys) and for the 5 years in my secondary, I didn't have much interaction ( in fact: nearly none) with the opposite sex. I believe spending time and engaging in conversations with the opposite gender is crucial part of growing up. This will help a lot in the near future to attract the opposite sex and feel confident in approaching them, as I shall explain further below. When I enrolled at a mixed 6th form college, conversating with girls was a fresh, new experience to me. I could imagine thier characters based on what I see on TV and so forth but to have direct interaction and feel how girls behave and listen to a female voice was truly amazing. I wasn't a good conversator nor am I a good one now but simply saying hi, introducing yourself and asking a questions freshers ask each other felt like an achievemen for me and I felt good. I'm in my second year now and I must say I haven't developed female interaction any further. Now my conversations with females don't go further than 'How was your weekend' if it's a Monday morning or 'How's studying going'. It's simply a quick exchange. I can understand why, they themselves don't put any effort in me, even to befriend me. I sense that I'm not quiet the guy girls usually go for hence there isn't a single phone number of a girl in my contact list. 2) I'm a very tall guy - 6'5" [For you to visualise, 1cm from the top of your 2m door]. I've never been fond of my height because I've always been made fun of; I'm pretty sure you've asked 'How's the weather up there' once upon a time in your life. My height seems pretty freaky (standing next to girls) and that is to many girls a turn off, contrary to popular belief - girls love tall guys. Well having thought about that pretty carefully, I found out that girls like heights that are just above average i.e. 6'0"-6'3". I'm currently in the process of transforming myself - I hit the gym to get in shape; become healthier and ultimately gain more confidence.:D 3) The whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing for me I'm personally sceptical about. If I unleash my affection and love to someone, believe you me I will pour my complete heart on her. But I can't trust this young teenage girl - we are kids. Nowadays, relationships are ridiculous and utter shambles and not many are committed from heart. I firmly believe in what I say - youthful romance nearly to always goes astray. I feel scared I will be betrayed. That song 'Never getting back together sums things up'. 4) Although I'm an 18 year old man who loves to roam around anywhere, does anthing he feels like (oh I'm kinda selfish too :) ) I must say I will miss the complete sovereignty I enjoy. I'm not such an outgoing person and don't like spending money on topp ups and send 'Good morning' texts every morning (according to Twitter it's a norm nowadays). Bizarre. 5) I'm must tell you guys also - I'm a Muslim and in this religion will prohibit you from engaging in premartial relationships. I should be practising it but I don't, but soon will do i.e.start praying the 5 daily prayers. It's a hassle for us teenagers. So I tend to conflict myself - sometimes I say 'No, wait till you're older and find a wife' and other times (mostly) 'you're young, many Muslims your age, why not do it too'. But honestly I don't think religion would stop from loving someone because If I did fall in love with someone, as I said I don't think I can refrain, because I'm an emotional giant with a big heart. Anyway, that was me ; what about you? Why have you been single all your life? And what will you do to change that? | |||
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***Why Have You Been Single All Your Life?***
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