So I am like most everyone else who thought that their wife would never cheat on them. I am 33 and my wife is 35 and we have been married for 6 years and we have two beautiful girls 5 and soon to be 2.
At some point in our marriage we started turning into room mates, we weren't meeting each others love language and we started to go to couples and individual counseling because we knew our marriage was not right. My wife had a break down 6 months ago and became depressed and empty and I did everything I could to build her back up, but I was not getting anything back in return.
I work offshore and I am home for 28 days and I away at work for 28 days, never messed around nor even talked to another woman. D-Day was 6 days ago, her dad and step mom took the girls for two days and she said she was going to get stuff done getting ready for Christmas. Well I called her that morning and I could tell something was wrong and she told me. The night before, she wanted to get out of the house and she chose to go to a bar in out town. She started drinking and evidently some OM started chatting her up and she liked the excitement of it and then she ended up in his truck with him doing his thing. There was no intimacy, but there was excitement, but after it was over, she was beside herself and is so pitiful saying she screwed up and she never meant to hurt me and that she wants to stay married and that she cant believe she would put our kids through what she went through. I am away at work and I cant make it home for another week and I am beside myself because I am God fearing man and I want to forgive her and reconcile, but I am hurting so bad and I feel betrayed and I'm doing the best I can just to not curl up in a ball and lie on the floor and cry. We have been talking and I still love her and have feelings for her, I just cant get past the hurt and I don't know if I can be with someone who betrayed our marriage. I know our marriage was not perfect and I know the part I played in that, but instead of having sex with OM, she could have cried out differently. Her counselor strongly believes she is bi-polar and she is scheduled for an examination in the next few weeks. She already went to the personal Doctor because she is suffering from bulimia again and she is scheduled to get STD tested tomorrow. She has even agree to a Post Nuptial when I get home in case this happens again. She says she wants to reconcile and not give up on us, but she is saying she is so messed up inside it's hard for her and I will admit she does hav e alot of baggage.
I am just beside myself what to do and if I should even believe her because I hurt so much and she has ripped my heart and soul from me. I am trying to rely on God and my faith and I feel myself slipping everyday. So I am reaching out to here for help until I can get home and see my own counselor.
At some point in our marriage we started turning into room mates, we weren't meeting each others love language and we started to go to couples and individual counseling because we knew our marriage was not right. My wife had a break down 6 months ago and became depressed and empty and I did everything I could to build her back up, but I was not getting anything back in return.
I work offshore and I am home for 28 days and I away at work for 28 days, never messed around nor even talked to another woman. D-Day was 6 days ago, her dad and step mom took the girls for two days and she said she was going to get stuff done getting ready for Christmas. Well I called her that morning and I could tell something was wrong and she told me. The night before, she wanted to get out of the house and she chose to go to a bar in out town. She started drinking and evidently some OM started chatting her up and she liked the excitement of it and then she ended up in his truck with him doing his thing. There was no intimacy, but there was excitement, but after it was over, she was beside herself and is so pitiful saying she screwed up and she never meant to hurt me and that she wants to stay married and that she cant believe she would put our kids through what she went through. I am away at work and I cant make it home for another week and I am beside myself because I am God fearing man and I want to forgive her and reconcile, but I am hurting so bad and I feel betrayed and I'm doing the best I can just to not curl up in a ball and lie on the floor and cry. We have been talking and I still love her and have feelings for her, I just cant get past the hurt and I don't know if I can be with someone who betrayed our marriage. I know our marriage was not perfect and I know the part I played in that, but instead of having sex with OM, she could have cried out differently. Her counselor strongly believes she is bi-polar and she is scheduled for an examination in the next few weeks. She already went to the personal Doctor because she is suffering from bulimia again and she is scheduled to get STD tested tomorrow. She has even agree to a Post Nuptial when I get home in case this happens again. She says she wants to reconcile and not give up on us, but she is saying she is so messed up inside it's hard for her and I will admit she does hav e alot of baggage.
I am just beside myself what to do and if I should even believe her because I hurt so much and she has ripped my heart and soul from me. I am trying to rely on God and my faith and I feel myself slipping everyday. So I am reaching out to here for help until I can get home and see my own counselor.
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