I'm only 5ft, female and slim/small boned people always say I'm tiny. Some girls in primary school are taller than me. I hate being weaker than people I go to the gym and feel strong after lifting but I just think what's the use. I guess I feel insignificant because of my size. I work with youths on hospital wards, some who have been in prison, and tend to get swapped for male staff is one of the patients is being particularly aggressive. It's always me who they swap. It doesn't bother a lot of women as they get their feeling of 'power' from talking and domineering in that aspect. I'm not much of a talker I'm extremely quiet and laid back, I suppose like a lot of males are, but males often get their sense of value in the job from their strength if they have to restrain someone etc (it's not all that professional to say this but in reality it's true). I'm always being told how unsafe it is to walk alone at night. I'm very quiet in general but in the past when peo ple have had some sort of dispute with me I've been called a 'midget' so it's not that I'm over exaggerating my size.
Im very independant (or at least want to be) and don't have boyfriends I prefere to be single. I've just aways wished I was at least average height so that people don't see me as weak etc. I guess I can't increase my size so what can I do to avoid this 'weak' and 'useless' feeling I have all the time?
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