Hey guys, I'm just looking for some neutral opinions on something, as the people I'm close to I don't feel like I can share this stuff with. I've been with my boyfriend for 5 months, he's my best friends brother and I've known him over ten years. He's 100% the perfect boyfriend in theory, he always spends time with me, shows me off to his friends, makes romantic gestures, has a decent job and is really affectionate. I'm just hung up on the past and have been since the day we got together, and I'm not sure if we should have in the first place. We started sleeping together occasionally, basically I cheated on my ex boyfriend with him one night when we had a massive row. Months went by and we hooked up again once, again after I had a row with me ex and we eventually broke up. I kind of broke up with my ex because I started to have feelings for this guy. One night, we were texting and planning to have a drink the next night. I was at my friends and he was at home, his ex is a friend of his other sister (I know, ridiculous situation) and she came round to his house. They ended up sleeping together. They had been broken up 8 months and hardly saw eachother so I don't know where this came from. My best friend told me in passing as nobody knew my feelings for him, but I told her how I felt as soon as she told me, and she told him. I was so hurt but then I realised he didn't know that I liked him, in fact I gave him reason to think he was just a friend with benefits. He's liked me for 8 years and his friends have made that clear to me but he never thought we would get together, so you would think that him sleeping with me would put him off seeing anyone else if he's liked me for that long...Now 5 months later I can't stop thinking about it. I got with him because I care for him so much, and I really thought it was a mistake and I could forgive it, but I don't think I ever can. Am unreasonable to feel like this? How can I let it go? I have OC D and I think this plays a part in the situation...but it's ruining my relationship!
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