It is not about the looks, at all, they need not be stunning.
I get nice and reasonable girls wanting me to go on dates and commit, and hang on my every word and they literally used to give me 'signals' all of the time in university. It got kind of ridiculous the more times i rejected girls. But, despite their looks, i just could not be bothered to make the effort and opted for one night stands in clubs/the union instead. I won't lie about my background, I spent a whole gap year studying girls and 'picking up' girls. Prior to that, I spent all of sixth form studying women, like real theoretical material, not that Neil Strauss "The Game" fake palm reading bull ****. I spent all of university playing girls around, it was all just a game.
I had some genuinely good hearted girls wanting to know the 'real me' but it just did not stimulate me whatsoever, i did not even want to have sex with them because i wasn't engaged mentally with them. In fact, i would say that these days (and indeed for quite a while now) i don't really get excited by sex with new girls.
But, the problem. I do seem to be going for the mind ****s. And these are the only girls I am really attracted to. Perhaps, it is for the challenge, because i want their validation. These girls seem to be very intelligent, playful in a girly way and challenging. And they never give themselves away too much. I would say they are manipulative with the constant game playing and pre meditated **** tests. I just wish i could be attracted to some simple nice girl, who does not give me such a mental bother but i can't, i have tried and i can't. I mean, it is really quite bad for me, i go for a girl that blatantly plays men around and has the same mentality to relationships as a typical Casanova. But, even though i am really quite ashamed of myself for being like this i can't change. I can't even explain why i want a girl like that's validation. I don't lack self esteem, i don't like particularly playing with fire. So, i find it very difficult to explain why I 'fall in love' w ith girls like this. I assumed that only girls go for the 'bad guy', but i am just as bad in terms of going for the 'bad girl'.
I get nice and reasonable girls wanting me to go on dates and commit, and hang on my every word and they literally used to give me 'signals' all of the time in university. It got kind of ridiculous the more times i rejected girls. But, despite their looks, i just could not be bothered to make the effort and opted for one night stands in clubs/the union instead. I won't lie about my background, I spent a whole gap year studying girls and 'picking up' girls. Prior to that, I spent all of sixth form studying women, like real theoretical material, not that Neil Strauss "The Game" fake palm reading bull ****. I spent all of university playing girls around, it was all just a game.
I had some genuinely good hearted girls wanting to know the 'real me' but it just did not stimulate me whatsoever, i did not even want to have sex with them because i wasn't engaged mentally with them. In fact, i would say that these days (and indeed for quite a while now) i don't really get excited by sex with new girls.
But, the problem. I do seem to be going for the mind ****s. And these are the only girls I am really attracted to. Perhaps, it is for the challenge, because i want their validation. These girls seem to be very intelligent, playful in a girly way and challenging. And they never give themselves away too much. I would say they are manipulative with the constant game playing and pre meditated **** tests. I just wish i could be attracted to some simple nice girl, who does not give me such a mental bother but i can't, i have tried and i can't. I mean, it is really quite bad for me, i go for a girl that blatantly plays men around and has the same mentality to relationships as a typical Casanova. But, even though i am really quite ashamed of myself for being like this i can't change. I can't even explain why i want a girl like that's validation. I don't lack self esteem, i don't like particularly playing with fire. So, i find it very difficult to explain why I 'fall in love' w ith girls like this. I assumed that only girls go for the 'bad guy', but i am just as bad in terms of going for the 'bad girl'.
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