Really struggling with distance..

Me and my boyfriend see eachother every other weekend, which seems like a lot but it's not when the 3 days we get to spend together are perfect, and the rest of the week and a half we spend arguing and falling out. I've been diagnosed depressed, and sometimes I just feel so incredibly low that I just want to confide in my boyfriend, but it often turns into me "having a go", me looking like the bad guy and him acting as though it's my CHOICE to be in such a terrible mood. I admit a lot of the time I do take it out on him but I'd really like him to understand that very often I don't have any control over how I act. I have nobody else to talk to so it's always him. I have no idea what to do. It's like a completely different relationship when we're together, but when we're appart I get jealous easily, I feel low a lot of the time and end up pissing him off, we argue about things I've caused and I just seem to do nothing but say/do the wrong things. Any advice please? Anything you have to offer me would really be appreciated, I feel so alone right now.

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